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ڵԼҪжǱжǱɣ
"ƶĻûԵѪ" 
ʼϵϣԴתԼϵʹȻ֪ܲǣֻԼ̲ס......ݺݵǸĻ쵰
˭ܹõNѧ빤ϵϵXо˲֪ĻӴ˿ӸǸͬıɽ˿ƶӣҪе˶۾˩ֹ۾Ӿһȫ𾪶۾¡̬оҲֻǸӺ͵ûʲı̬ɽóԼƫƫĺˣڸʵС......
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һϴľʹŪջȻûȫʽ䣬ǻĵһ̩ոտʼʹѣԲ߱еǻ죬ҲȱʹĴƼأܵʹԶҪŮǿҵö࣡
ʹҪҪǸĻڴΪʧƷе......ǸɶļⷣԲҵԼģҵǵĺӣ
ʵһ㶼ųӵĺӣڴĺӣһǸȫûиļⷲǰΪһʵɹһƷ......
ƶ㵽ûһԣûһѽ
ǿʹɬ......ʶǸ쵰ˣϼװںӣϵظŮѣǸҵĻĴܲ˭뵽ʵԼ㰵ǸѪıɽ˰......˵ʵЦ˵Ĵ......Ǹ쵰Ҫ֪£϶᲻м֮Աǰ......
......֪µģ......
Ǽ£˿̵뵽ΨһҲǸ......ϣʱ򣬿ƶܹԼߣΪԼǰδеͲ......ȻǸҪأȻأٰƷǸɷ
ǸûĻ쵰ȥɣ
Բ鷢ģرסԼĶӣԼĶ˵"ӣְֻᱣģԲΪʵƷƷ......"
ǵģԷͲԼһõĹߣĺӣúñӵģԶݲĸ飬Ϊ......
Ҫһ裬ҲӦǵģ˵Ҳѧ͹ϵĸ߲Ⲣѵ......Բԣı......
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ڲƺش˸ǷȻɹɹ̫˯ʵﲻͣʵҪ......
˭᲻۾ߵˣ
"Ǹû°ɣ"
۾⣬޷Էĳ࣬ڹӰֻ֮ܿһݵӰһͷɫЩķ˿˾Ӹ£ѸٵشӵƽԷŷֶԷԼߣֻǱԼҪһЩԵûСһ㡣öԷԵСĲģ
˳ĺڷ볤ɢĹ⣬ǳɫ˫˸ĺĹ⣬׵Ƥ͸ýûѪɫȻվů͵֮£ȴ˸е⡣ǿϧǸˣȴڳһǧ֮ӣϧ
ƶװĮؿǰ˩?ղķʿNķѧ͹ϵоĸ߲?ϵ۵Ľ˾԰׵ĴȾʻɫʣһͷõĽ𷢡ۡЦĴ졢ľѡСķɫ˧Ʋ۾λ꼶ѧѧһĿ⣬ɫⶼȻʧɫЦݣԼ˲䱻ڻ......
ʵϣԵһĳɼNٴҽѧϵڱĵһ죬Ϊѧ͹ϵӭŵصͶһʯ......
һֱΪԼǵĴһЦǾԲᷢԼϵģƵƫƫˡ
ǣΪܹõĽӽ˵ʦļתѧ͹ϵΪѧܣյǣԼƧԸԼԶԶȦ֮⣬Ѿѧĵˣûκλ˵ϻ......
ոΪҲܲʵķ񾢣ϳʵúϢò뿪ԼΨһȽϵӦֵ򣬶ɹɹϲ⣬ȴû뵽ڲݵ˯һȥû뵽Сߵֽ˼֡
Ľŵͨű׾ʱֱı䣬ûƺ൱ĺ䣺"㲻˯ģװ˸Ϊݵʪððһػಡ"
ڿƶ˵ȥĵĻִĻߵԼǸָԼһԼಡ˷һƯʬһûκα飬ǶһŴ죡
ԭԿƶĺøһӶûˣԭĺҲʧһɶ൱˵"ݵصȻ˯ģѲɻ̤ģûһ㻷ʶ𣿸ðܱಡಡҪüˣ"
"......"Ŷ񶾵ƺҪðʲߵĻͻȻ˶ͷȻȥסW......
"ʲᣡ"ƶŵԾһ˶ȡ
"˵ˣıȽʺ㣡"ƶΪԼͻȻĶŪ˷ִ磬ʱɢ
о治˿̫ˣԻȥʵˣ뿪ûע⵽ƶŰ伫ΪWĺ......
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Ͽεʱ仹ŻŵسڣܲʿĹȽɢÿεĲ˹ȴǳĿϳٵ˾ٳɫпܻᱻ
"ߣ"߿ٽϿεʱһɢĺ˹ڶǿɾͱȽͷʹˣϾ˹ڿǵʵָڡ"˵㻹ǹġ"
ʼ磬ں˵"ҿûгٵ"
߽Ĳ˹ڣλʮҾݵĿȥʮ̵ֿĽڽ죬ֲֹźͶӣǵģһ쵽һѿ͸ѿˣҪװҲҪλƯ˲ʺ......ͻȻ˿ƶЩϧȻ˵㣬Ͷһ㣬ǻͦɰģӦ֣Ҳ˵ɡ
"ܱǸҳٵˡ"û뵽ƶſڳˣŲ԰׵Ϊܲ΢죬Ըеĺ촽ڴڵ˵Ȼһйȥסĳ嶯Լ뷨ЩŵǳĻӣֻŮȤɽƯҲǸ......
˹һӱȥΪɲоֲƬ߳ĽʬһԼΪ"ҪΪԼĳٵʲ"
ƶƽϢԼĺΪرˣþ޷ƽһֱ޷ʵ飬ֱʱŽ״̬ʵŷԼϿοҪٵˣûϴ緹ܹˣ˵һεĳٵԲ˹ҡҡͷ䵭Ŀ˵"ٵǳٵκɣҵĴ"
˹ںͬѧһ¶һ˿죬ѧˣЩٵѧĳͷܻøʽӷУֱȥˣֻǰλ൱ڲͬλ춳ԼѧʵҪԸеԼĴ춸ˡ
صͷִһƶֳ˱Ҫº͵ö飬һ˿Цݣ˵"ҼǵûĻӦоһ꼶ֱſεĿƶ?ά˶ࡣ"ſαӦǲʿĿγ̣N󲢲֧һʽƶ൱ɫĵʦƼƸֱϲʿࡣ
ƶ΢΢һ£ȻҹЩʹ̲ס˹ڣ˵"Ǹ˹ڣڿѧʵ򲻸óӦĴʻ㣬ҪǾȷ"
ƶһµѧһƶٵ˲ԼҸɣû¾ͰҲĽڶ죬һӶ......
"Ǻ......"ǣ˹¶˵ƴ۾Цݣ"ƶ?ά˶࣬ΪҵôʲȷǸӭΪҵѧ"
"治Ǳɽά˶࣡"߸̾˵
Щֵؿ򰢶˵"ʶ"
˹һؿȵ˵"ǰɣȻʶϵպıɽά˶ࣿò˿ԲԱôıİĽ֮»ѵþȻ㲻ʶˣҲԣֻԴظȤ......"
"ǱߵͬѧϿ벻Ҫ˵"˹˵õؾǡƶע⵽˶ڽۼ˹ȥ˵"ա"
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΢΢һ㶣û뵽ƶԼкЩζؿƶ˲Ϊ¶ǺԼɣʵ˵뿴űϳĵظڿƶĶߣ˵"ˣҲˣϲ͸ĳμɡ"
ƶƴѹסļʵ˵ϲ˵......ֻػһ䣺"ҪһϢĿˮһ£ڸԲļϳԣ˵ȷʵǸϢ"ƶĵȷȷһ飬˭ǳĽ춶Ĺİϸһ£Ҳܿġ
һӽǲԣɽһ˲ͣʱı൱ɰģҪϿΣһΣɽΪԼĶ񶾵ٴθۡ
"ͬѧǣǷ飬ʵɲһ˵£Ҫϡ"˹̨Ϸ"ƽԼǩ鵽ֵͬﶼʵⷰ顣"˵꣬˹ԼİóһֿչʾԼѧ˿ϴһشҡ
ƶЩŵؿ˹ڽеֿһһңһû˯עЩԼУؼʱ̣ҲҪеľЩֿ˳ǵģؼʱ̣
ƶ۾ؿ˹еֿϣûǰ鵽ֵͬ֡ȥ飬ǵƶԼ൱ˣǵûдĻ鵽Ӧ1ʣµǸ1ûб˳ߡ
˹ȥʱȴԥˣģ˯߲ԹϹƣЩЩǲϽǵſﵽŲ1......
"ά˶ࣿ"˹ЩؿͷðĿƶһֿŵƺκοⶼҪҪ
ƶ֪ԼûжʱԥˣٲƢõĲ˹ںܾܿͰԼ߳ңͻʧȥΨһһĻᣡ΢΢۾ϵ۰ƽʱһĳİϣܳ鵽1......
ٴ۾ƶſĽҲԭ̤ڰĬĬעΣѾܺ˵һˣ
ƶһѣһῴ׼һƣſ˺ΣָЩճճģòſֿʮֽŵؽһ˲䣬Ĳҿ......
ƶǰδеؽյ׽ҿлϵۣԺһˣ
ƶ׵һޱȵãȲص˹Ϊ˹Ը˵"ά˶࣬㽫ղķʿΪʵⷰ飬Һڴǵĳɹ"
ƶ̲סеЦ⣬൱ɵ˵"ղķʿϣ졣"
ƶȻ˵ûжΪʲܾϲãҲЦˣ"ղķʿ裬ɣҿԽƶ"
"ԡ"
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찡ᵹùػ˷䵽һ
һ˼굽ʵĿƶͿʼޱȵذúⷳΪǼ飿ɵˣⷸǸӣԭѾ̬ˣǸʵҵ̫СˣڣѾϾŵˣԸ뿪ʵңϾŵʳûгԹѾʮСʱˡⷱĻҪһЩѵö𣿾㲻Ҳ˰ɣмҲûпͣϢǸ
"һæ......"ƶ̧ͷһߵ۾ԹϲԼһ
"ˣ"
Ȼˣ˲ǹҪ䣡"˵ǣѾʮСʱûнʳˣѵ㶼ö"ѹݵÿԷ紵ߵˡ
һѣȷʵЩˣƶǸؿһʵҾͻʱ䣬ѯ"ҪԷ"
"ѽ"ѪػشԳԷҲҪɻһ£òʵǻ˰ɣӻе......
"ʲ᣿"ƶǱģʵϿƶƽʱеĿǣԼ͵һ棬ȻԺͣȻڳ෴ķչ......
"ʲ᣿ܹӵĶ"û˵ܲ춽ЩʵҵĶɣǶһ......
ͻȻڴֻһӵ绰Ůǵıը"죡ҵСʱˣҲӵ绰ǲֺͱŮ˺ˣ"
"ǣڻʵ......"ԼԼŮһ͵ģ˵
"ʵң"ǲĻ"úýͣҿԲƽϣδ̫ˣ˵㻹ʵңЦһ㶼Ц"˭֪ǳɢԾ輰ʱ˵ڻʵңƭţ
"ʵң"Լą̊́ϵʥŮ£ޱȵԩڵĵȷȷʵңǰĻŮѶΪ棬Ϊʲѵ˵һ滰ȴţ
һԼʹͨͲҲܸоѾٱ״̬ˣ"ٸһᣬ˵ʵ"
εؿһߵĿƶظ˵"ǣҵĵȷȷʵңŵĻԹ......"
"ˣұˣˣǷְɣ......"
"ι......"ͣǶԷѾѵ绰ˣֻε̾
"㲻ȥ"һֱĬĿƶͻȻ˵ѵոǵĶԻһȫûдȥӣ̲סʡ
ֻʼ磬һںӣܿģֻˣ"ι"
"ˣǸľֲм൱椣ҪҪ"ǰߴġ
ε˵"ڻʵ......"
"ʵң"ߵһף"ڸʲɻ㵽׺죿ٺ٣㲻ԴװɣҼǵǰɲںͻȻ"
йʲģΪʲѵ˵һ滰Ҷ......ѵƽʱ˵̫ԵıӦʲһƣֻ"ڿЦأ͹ȥǵȵҡ"
"ҿ......"ԾؿԼƶԼƽ¶ŵ˵"ҼǵĳӱȥˣһҲǶ㲹"
ЩȣʲʱζˣĳȷʵȥˣȻѵ˾ֶΪ
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ƶ͵ָص㣬ȻζԼѧҲܾǾ˿ƶ"˵ƶһ־ֲɣҪҪҴȥһ棿"
"á"ΪԼҪչһû뵽ƶȻһڴӦ⻹ЩԾպʡ²ٿˮȥƯMM
ƶֲ߽ȾͶüͷӵְӵŮŮ˴˵ϷϲӵĵطƽʱҪʱĻ󲿷ȥֻǿչʲģЩܾ֮ҵʵУĵطֻûҵӸΪңĿζǶء
"٣ߣ"Ⱥп˷ܵغȥ˧椸ڣܸܿ㶨ԱǼƯˣ֮ĿƶЩɵˣʲʱͱɽҪˣ
Ա߼ʶƶ˿ƶǰһ٩˵"ʲʱƯŮˣҲ͸˵һ̫ˣ"
"ʲҵһѧܡ"û˵ƶŮӵĻҴǿأ......ƶŮӣǿҲҪԼȥڻ""ȻСղ""""......
""""˽лԼȻѹǵģոʲأ
"ǽһƯѧܰɡ"ȻܳԾƶǸˣǱŮ˻ҪƯһӲȡǵĺøУϣͨʶ
"Ŷѧܿƶ?ά˶ࡣ"˿ƶĿоܲǺԸزݲݽһ䣬ϣƶЩиĽͻȻЩƶһˡ
"ˣƶ³......""ǰͶ£""ιι̫³çˣãǿ˹......""Уװʲ˹ģ"ȿƶԼ
ĳ棬ƶûʲرķӦΪƫòϲͬԵڣֻ䵭صͷ˳֣һߡ
ĮԵЩΣԭҲһĬоյĲԾæԲ˵"Ǳ⣬ѧܾӣȽɬҲŴ档"
"ǰɣ""ӵľֲûɣ""......ỹǸаɣ""......"һߵļ˺ôЦоƶӱϢæһʾǼһ㣬⼸Ȼûʾ⣬ǰشЦ
ƶõؿǣǸʲֵЦģɲֻĽҲ֪ʲʱ˶ЩĲĵһεȻҪԼϲ......۹ⲻԾƮһε
۹ΪҪԼ𣬸ϽתǼЦûû˵˵ע"ǲ˵к"
"һ٣ǲ뵱㣬㿴Ǵȣ"һ˵Ůˣ⼸˾̻ΪҰޣ۳״ǿҪˮָ
ǰһȷʵҪϿƶûĻˣ......ˣᾡƶ......
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һ⼸ԵʩһǵģֻҪƯСݼ¾Ϳˣٺ٩СǷ˴Цݣ˵ľֳÿƶЩˣĶÿƶһ
վϴ˵΢Цǰ͸ոָһŮǴڨĵƹͳӵ޷ڽЩʲᣬǴǱߴһһЦȻѾɹˣûþͿǱߵŮλˡ
"治һسɹ"ߵ̾ᶼˣǾû㣿˺˻費ͨ
"٣ֵǼӭƯСǣ"ǣһһȺòӣȺĽҪƶøɭ͵վ˵"ν棿"ޱȼʵؿֻϵŮԵ֣Ƶͺ˵"ŸպǰŮѷֶѣĻ쵰"
һĪؿֻʧؿһתȥˡ
"٣⵽£""ǸĪļ˭"˸еĪƶķӦŪúǰŮһȻģȻìͷָ
޹֪Ǹʲᣬĵش棬˭֪Ǽⷾ⣬Ǽ뿪ʱЩԾ......
"û£ǸⷾģҲҪǵġ"ٴιϰ˵Цݣؽ"٣ƯСǣҸոսˣ"
"ޣո˵ǸƢŹֵ......"
ܿģǾǸոշСصõ֮УǺ̸ܽҲܻЦŮһ㶼ߣܿǢػһšʼٸԵЩĲ......
ոտƶ뿪ʱƺɫƽʱҪ԰һ㣬˵ʱҲƽʱֱߵʱ򣬲е壬Ҫ......ĳʲ°......
""""
"ţ"͵һŷԼոܵ˺Լ˵ȫûһ㷴ӦָؿԼ
"ˣ˼Ҹոպ˵ȫûһ㷴Ӧʲ᣿"ѾҪΪŮѵɺرԹ
ܵЦ˵һ䣺"ʲζıϲء"
"......"ɺһ˿ߺ죬Ǻŵ̻ش˵"ϲɿζġ"
"Ǻ......"......ЩĲǸ飬Ͼո̫Ѱˣزģ֮أƯЩֻɫǲŲںԱʲ......̫ˣ
"ã"͵վϵıʮֵϾɺʹҶˣɺίϲɿζȫûбҪķӦ......
"˼ˣλݰݣ"æһȺˣͳ˳ȥóֻϽƶ绰Ҳ֪Ǹɽڸʲ춼ӵ绰ֻˣ
ݺݵذһƴֹԼֻͷεزƶֻ춹˰Ǳߴһ"ι......"
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ƶߵ뿪˾ֲ뿪ǸӵĻ侲ֿʼñ쵰أŸոպǰŮѷֶѣֹһĴ⤣
ƶйһԱߵ·ƣҪЩʲᣬԱߵϻ΢ԥһ£ȺȿԼƽʱơơ
ơƣǷϵ·߳ϣơƺݺݵعһڡ
"੤""ȩ"һĶȻܹһܻӭ˹ʺˣƶѵõĵ˴໰Ҫӵеơƣǻ˼£Ǿһơһ
ⶫʹѺأĸоǲ˱ЩƮƮȻ......˯......
绰ͻȻͣЩزȥӣǵ绰ûû˵᲻ͷشӿڴֻ̳򿪵绰"ι"һһͷ춼ûӦҵ绰ȴֱͷˡ
"٣ƯС㣬һ"ƶ̧ͷһȥЩûͦĴ󺺣ֻؿһְۣͷȥ
Ȼ󺺶ĺӺܲ⣬һץסϸŭ˵"ǣҲӣǰʲף"
ԷĴ³ÿƶٴ̧ͷˣ˻ͨķˣ
һͷԥῪ˵ȴ绰ﴫһЩܺ󺺵Ҳڵ绰ȻֵعսǴȻ˹ȥȻһתͿѬĴƶš
ģ֪ſƶƯһû£
"Ǹס֣"ǰŭľƹȻץ˿ƶϸ׵
"ϣ"󺺴һڣ¶Ƶݣ漴Ц"ҪӢ۾""̫ˣ"
"Ļ쵰ҷſƶ"ŭ˵ĳЦһǰƿץƶǸˣƽʱʱϰȭԸƹӦⲻ......
ƶֻؿһۣͻȻӱᱧסһ"ιʲᣡ"
"ͷĽ"ƶͷľЩģȻһ˿
ܳԾһӴסˣˣһζǺ
"СҲмһţŶȥ"ˬؿˣͿƶѾˣǲԱϹͣ
"驤"Ը˵ͻȻһǹһӦһؿıᣬһ""ͲֻˡһͷȻֿƶﲻ֪ʲʱһǹŵصƶɵĮſֵغ"ɱˣ"
ƶͷЩΣǰЩģ˯ĺУǰС֣˿ļϣͷ˵"ó氮С֣ǹѣ˵ġ"
"㩤"صͻȻúĿƶ֪ǹɱ˵ǹ˭ǳϣͻȻճԼˣ"ι......"
"Ҫ......Һ˯ͻؼȥ......"ƶֻСèһزһʱỹ淴Ӧ"֪"
ƶ̧ɵȻһͻȻԸֿڸĸо
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Ȼ˦ͷԼԿƶֹĸоֱסҡҡ׹ĿƶⷱԼеĻҪݣϸöŮˣ̾ϢؿѾ˵Ŀƶʣ"סȥ"
ƶԺرһַſϳ׵׵˯ȥˣΪ˯Ե죬غᱧ˳ϣӵĿڴҵԿףǸƶ˵ĵط
ܿ죬Ǿ͵ĿĵأЩؿƶķӣǶı൱ĸߣⷻͦǮģֽ̽ĿڴﲢûҵԿף˯ʮĿƶܲĽѿƶĿڴ˼£ɱظƶƤǱĴǴﵽԵʱȴĻȣȻһ˿ģûͬ
òҵԿףȻЩĸһ̫ûŮ˵ĹϵȻ¶ȱԶ϶µļ˷Ӧһ̫Ů˵Եʣһǵģ
ϵҰοԼӦϵҽһֱƶһִţƶ൱ĴһһٶƺĻ԰ƺлķϵļѾЩӲݴˣǿϧ
ϧһũͥȻ㸻ԣΪڼģչ˱ԼСĵܵҲᾭܵũׯϰĸԼ԰Ҳ൱ȰһƬ԰Ӿᱻķˣ;޵ϧпýɽúôƯ԰ӡ
ⷶԵ
һ߽ڣŵصɴ۾ʵڿķҳӣΪԸн֮ϰԣһӵ鼮·һ˵жҾжң
ޱؿӵĻңȻԴˣȻŮǴͬʱֻ̤ģʱñףŮѸڰȫڣûбҲֻǵؾûбͦɾģƽʱڼûµʱϲɨ䡣׵ķ䣬üͷͽˣ˲ò࣬ƶĿеҲʼ߸
ǿѷɨɾѿƶЩ¥ߣƶȻݵǱϾﻹЩġѾذεطֿƶȫûкö٣ӵҽпƵ飬ƶⷽ滹Ȥ˵ƶԭǴҽѧԺתģȻҽѧȤתϵˣǸˣ
ѿƶŵϣԥһƶ˯գ֪ʼֱϵĿƶ˶ŷӦģȻֿˣ
"ţ"ƶԺ۾سЦˣļҵһ£ƶĶ׵ر˼......
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ƶſ۾֮ƺǺǣ⻹һΣһתѹ£ѹµԵЩ֪룬΢΢һЦһͷƯĽ𷢣ĵĴУ۹Ըе촽ĵطƶһЦͷԼ쩤
Ƭ촽ӣ۾Ҫɳˣһ£ɽǰδеضԼ¶ѵһ΢ЦڸסԼûǹǡǡ෴ǹˣǺͬԽ⻹ǵһΣ漣ǣһҲУڴͿƶһķչֱǷˣ
ȻƿƶƶֻǷһ˯ȥˡ۾ضƺѾ˯˵Ŀƶʵ˵ƶĽʵɬĿԣһ......ŵԼ°ȻɽǿҵӦĹ֣ѹͬ
ֿƶ˯գֿʼˣ˯ĿƶȥƯͻûԱʹʹǰҹľ飡ջйɽռеĶռ
뷨ʵһӵ뷨ǵ......ⲻ뷨һʱ嶯ˣҲˣʵڲﶺȥˣʮǱ˳ȥײײãԼӦ⳵ȥһܻȥ......
ؼҵԼǷˣֻҪһ۾ǿƶԼһĻȻֿʼǼˣ
˼ԡŰЩҹϴˮ裬˰ˮžԼ侲ƣɵϣһ۾ԼǰĻǿƶˣһԭǵģһǵģ......ҸŮѣٻȥ............ǳʲӣе......
ʱԺ˯ȥѹʱѾˣ̵ĿΣ߷ϢԼ㣬ҪúõȥҸŮ˷й¶ѻʵܲӿƶ״
ڵ绰˰죬ȥոշֵŮǣԥһ£ỹǲͨǵֻ
ǽͨĵ绰ʱЩԾ"绰ң"
"......"˼κȰѾֵŮѣȿ˿ڣʵ˵绰ͺˣҪֵģԼһʱ߰ѻ˵϶ٻԼˣոտ绰ʾȻԼ绰־ϲû˵ַ˵һŮ˶֣ǴģڶͻҵµŮѣȴ绰Լˣǲ˵ԼڲͬģǵľԾ
"ǸҲԣ"˷ܵǸʧȥ⼫ΨһĺϵĻᣬ"Ϊ㣬ҵãȴûҵĺ¼......ԲŻ˵ЩĪĻ......"
Ĭһ£ȻٺòˣʲòģΪʲܾͷֵֹģ"ǣǸҲвԵĵطӦ绰ģ......ȥ"
Ϊϲ˽Լ˽ƻԼľȻܵŮҹģԸñ˽Լķ䣬ѾϰһҪ̴Ӧˡ
غ˼ٹ˵绰ſɳϣȥӦÿԽԼ......Ϊʲһ۾뵽ĻǸ˵Ĵ飡
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"......װ......ٿ............"
谵ĵƹ֮£ҵĴ֮ϣ˺Ů˵һԭʼ˶ɫ۾쳣ɣⳡ֮УץסһӲš
ǳ۳ϵԵЩĲɣ°ֻȴ֪εȥˣֻǻеضʧȥ飬ԵЩȤȱȱͷµŮˣøΪãƶʱֻı飿
Ȼһ鶯˼¾Ͳݲݽˣܿشǵ·ҪߡûдӼ߳ͻȻʧȥ£ɪضһ£شӴ´ȥ汧ס˵"ҹ......"
ۼƿǣ˸˵"УϻпΣǸںܳٵ"
ʧӦһؿŵıӰܽЩ֣֪ŮûĸǷٸϵģһ뵽㣬ЩȫԴ˸
һ·صԼĹԢһصƣ˵˴ϣڷйû֣̿˲ĵһڸʲֻҪһһۣһпƶĲϵظѸռԣ޷Ĳȥ......
ߵһϣ˼һϣֱһƬң粻òȥѧУΪв˹ڵĿλ治ӡ
ѧУ˰ߣ򲻶ϵԹ˹ڵı̬Ľض˵"Ľ㣬Ϊͱɽ˴ƣû뵽ɽȴǸˡ"
ˣƶѰƺͿƶǸӲļϵһɻʰߣ"룿"
"㲻֪"߾ȵؿĽ˵"̫ˣ˽Ҫʵ鱨"
һ£ͻȻȷʵһ£Ȼ˹ڵĿ磬ǲ˹ȴ涨ʵ鱨ϽһֱģӶǿƶ£ȻҪˣ"⣡ȫˣ¿ɲˣ"
ļ̾˵"ⷻ˼ʡûǱɽһȥı棬ıı涼˹Ǹϱ̬ˣҪǲڣ֪ǸˣȻ˹ʵʱ򣬱ɽ˻˵бıҪŪιȥˡ"
ŬǵǰǻûŪ꣬ѵ˵ƶһ㶨ˣ˵湻ģǰǽʱ൱һξ룬һҪŪ껹Ǻ࣬Ȼúúõظмƶһ£ҪԷɣ
11

һҾͿƶһ԰׵ƺЩѰĺΣ΢΢ЩסͻȻһϵǣҲԾԥǰк"......"
ƶֻޱվƽʱ΢ĵͷûУвˬ뵽һŪʵ鱨棬Լȷʵдɦɦͷ˵"Ǹ......ʵ鱨лл......"
ƶûзӦͷҲˣЩҲ˭ģ춼˯þ
"㩤㣡"ûüͻȻƶԴһᣬŵһ˵ƶʱط¸ĸߣѸĶͷʵһ˲ò˹ڵᱧƶٵһ䣺"ڣգ"ͼæȥУҽԺ
УҽΪƶιᣬ˵ƶΪðټƣ͹ȶգһЩҩƶؼҺúϢһƣ͹⼸֣ͺ𣬿϶ǿƶһ˰ҹϱŻᷢյġ
Ǹε飬úչһ¿ƶǵÿƶļٽƶͻؼңϣܵͻȻԼҲܲ......ٻΧҵĻּΪˬüͷ岻Ծضʼʰ𷿼
ȵɨˣԼĶЩˣҲΪ׼ЩԵģһ򿪱䷢ĶٵÿеļƬǹڵģѹֿƶСݳӣ
εҡҡͷֿĳдɹһŻѳɨɾٿʼЩƬƶ
"ƶЩ"ؽƬ˵ƶǰԼĳջĵģֻǿƶԺأƺ߽
"......뿪............"ƶúֻЩ⣬ɽʲ°ɣСʱ뿪𣿻ȥˣͬƶůÿƶһһ󺮵ʶؿ
ܿʶһ㣬ΪҪѹͻȻ˼뽫ֳǿƶĶ죬Ѹݵץס֣Ȼ۾ֻ˫ǳɫ۾ȥڵģƺûȫѡ
"ƶ"Ǻȷؽһƶƺ˷ӦһֻĶȴȫûԤϵġ
ƶȻѹ˵ϣȵ壡ȵҪƿϵĸ˲Ļ㱣ľƿ˵ⷻǸˣ
"ƶ......"Լ壬Լ³ǿơ
ֻǿƶȻû˵뵵˫ʵؿ۾峺ĺ˲Իõĵ⣬޷԰εرȥ㶵˫ƯۣƶʱûзӦ
տʼʱֻӡ촽ǽģƶͷ̽ǼΪɬķӦȴӶػӦ
ԾֱסƶͷͬʱͷҲ˿ƶ̽ȡеζƶֲ֪ʲʱѾ·̵ƤҲȼŤӵƶ
һתƶѹ£ҪȡһжϿƶ˫ã۾ǺWøﻺͻ"......"⼸ʱȻѡ
찡ʲᣡ
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ٵԵһ˳ȥĿĵؿ˿ƶļң˺ܾúܾãֱƣҲܲˣŵڵϣڴڵشһƬհףҲʲᣬֻҪһǰȫǿƶòǷˣˣ
ȻȴħһǿԼҪȥ룬ȴӴһ㣬ܿԼ˼άϵȥƶģոҪǿǲòᣡȻҪǿһˣ
Ҫȥúõسˮ裡......ڿƶ......ƶ......⣡ƶأ
ͻȻʶһ൱ص⣬ոȫһյĲ˶һؿ
ǿԼ侲ܻؿƶı˵ǣոܳûйţЩԼԺĿƶһڣţһʲỵ˽죿
÷ţԥһ£¥ȥƶƶ֮ǰȥӣڵܵᣬֿƶ״뿪֮ǰ⣬¶Щȥˣ԰׵Щ£͸ѵöѪѷǣĸʵŵòᣬһĻ¯УҪ͵ҽԺȥɷף
һѱƶЩƫ壬ƶСһɪĻϵ"............"
ƶ͵ҽԺҽ˵ƶ¶ѾߴʮȣҪסԺ˵ͷڼǩ֣סԺעʿǸƶϵֱ͵һֱȻᵱһаᣬپһƶ
״̬ĿƶͻȻͣ趯"............"
æסһץס֣߽ƶ֣"ƶ......ƶ......"
ᣬƶһͣ˶סֽطס֣ظ˵"뿪............뿪......"
ؿ쳣Ŀƶȫʧȥ˱Żĺӣɪɪ۽ˮĲϵسʹ̲סָָزˮ֣ο˵"......Ҳ뿪......"
Ļذס˿ƶƶƽ࣬أ岻Ҷǰȵ˯ˣֻǼ΢ֳ鶯һ£ͱòûа취ֻһֱ֣ʶҲģ......
"驤"ͻȻһѹȻͷһԭѲĻʿСĴӡʮֱǸ޴ؿǸ"Բ𣡶ԲҲǹҪģ"
һ»Щ۾ϰԵ¶˺ƵЦݣ"û¡"Ȼתͷƶ̽һͷ¶ȣһѾ̵ˣ
ʿؿƶֵϵĿƶЦ˵"ˣ"
һ£̷˵"ǣ"ܺͿƶɽˣ룬ƿƶҲܾ......
"Ŷ......"ʿЦһ£һʰһ߶˵"Ҫˣãһжģף׷ˣ"
ʿ""""֪ˣͣȻ뵽ʲᣬػͷϰ˯Ŀƶţܣ
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ƶԺѹһѹؿȥƿоԴϵһӾ˹۾ƶϲطѹˣ̹ĵʣ"ˣо"
ƶؿ£ǵϲ˹ڵĿΣȻ......"......"һŷԼĺĸƵԼһ
Ҳһ㣬Ͻһˮ"ɤӣʵ˵컹ˣ֪㷢40ȣ40Ү˵ģԼԲһأаʵʵģԼҪģǿԼʲ᣿ûǮ׬ǮԼҲܲ......"
߶߶˵ÿƶӻһתЩʲ˼ڹԼ𣿿ƶͻȻøã԰׵ҲһѪɫ˼ˮƶоöˣֻЩɳơƶܲŷȻҽԺòЩɫɫˢ̴Ӵ塣
¸ͣ㵵ؿһܣܿ׷˳ȥһסƶ˵"ƶˣ"
"......Ҫؼң"ƶԸܵƶھҵĲһεģƶǰֳĻֲ̿·˶µһ۵ֽӵ뻳Уο"ûµģʹؼң"
ƶһֱڲֽñһֿһסʱĵתͷƶһֱ۾ƺھܾʲᣬֵԽԽʲᡣ
"û£ԣûµ......"üͷšԽԽΪƶʹ֣ԴԴϴǷĲʲܹǸþһƶһ˲˾ŵĺһĿƶһشݺݵػؿڣ
һֱ˼ƶ״ЩתԼѾ뿪ҽԺһɫĿƶӸе⣬һˣͻȻеڿƶҲкܶܣ
ƶһѾжûȥҽԺˣ˭뵽ҽԺ־֢أҽԺ......вĨȥˣԼĴƶԸҵԼرֳֻޱף߽ԼӣطķȻһҹ֮øɾ룬ΪԼշʰ䣬ͷŵظһЩЦ⣺"ʰģ"
"ʲʰģ"ڶԿƶĵ֮УһʱûзӦܿģ׿ƶʲᣬֿʼ̲סԹ"ѽ˵ƶϵܣʵڿȻΪ˾ûнҲðɾ㿴ķ䶼ˣĳȻʲᶫûУѹݵֻ"
ƶԼȥЩԵıѾȫ˸ոյ֮УЦݽŨͻĲ"㻹еͥ츳"
"ʲỰճЦŮˣ"ƶҲܵĻָʯͷҲŭ˵"Ϊ㲡պãҾͲ㣡ϵܣ"
˵һȭ˿ƶļϣᣬƶֱʹ죬ԼļȴЦˣЦȴɵ⻹һοƶЦоԼҪ޷ˣ
ƶؿȻת"ˣ"
"ŶûʲᣬȥԵģ"ѸٵسȥÿƶԼˣˣ׵׵ˣڿؿԼģذϿƶˣ
ƶؿ߽ӰܹԶԼߣǸһҸΪҸϧһдۣ
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ƶһ˵ľ룬Ȼƶһӣϲط֣ԼƺΨһһȦˣǲ˵Լϣ
ɷϣ춳ϲĴͳͥĳЩ˼൱أϲҵİ֮ǰ֮УһȷԼذһ֮ᣬϣԼȢΪޣһȻŮŮƽʱǸϰѧȵڼյʱʹӺͶŮȥɳ̲Ӿȥߵ㡢ȥ¶ȼ٩δ룻һ棬ĸҲȽ̹ȻȻһˣȻкܴĳ룬춷ǳϲӵ˵ûк޿ɱһȱǱӣϣܺԼమ˹һ......ƶҲܰĻ......Ҳȥ׷ƶ
õոһҿȹݺ˷֣ԷȻҪһҲ൱ؼò׸㶨ǣʹæظʵңʱҪٵˣٵΣܿƶŶ񶾵ʹŹԼȴܻĬĬһ˰ԼµǲֲϣԼһڲͬġ
˵Цݣʵȥߵſھ˳ƶһ"ά˶࣬İ㰡㱻ҲԸ⣬Ͳܸһλ"ƶһ""ʵﴫһžһŻæ˽ȥͿһİͿƶһ𣬶ԷƺҪǿģƶȻû󣬱ǿƵѹϣҲû룬ֱȥһȭصشǸ˵ϡȭģһȭȥþȫԷն˽ȥһȫˣ峯ķ˹ȥ""һˤ˵ϣ"ž"죬ϵļֻԹҲҵ˵ϣ
ǸڵǱ˺ܾãһֱ䱸ؿûвȡκαΪֻǴӵȥЩֻǻ˵"ά˶࣬İ......Բ......"
ҡҡλε߳ʵңֻͷ֪ʲʱѾøոЩҵͷͶʵеĿƶͬոߵǸⷻ治ͨ飡ƫƫԼҲ֪ⷣԼûһ......
"ƶû°ɣ"ĵʣǿƶ"ٵˡ"
"......Ծ˵̬"ЩôոԼ˵ҲӦñʾʾһ°ɣָƶԼǣôͶԼһм΢Ц
"ˣ"ƶɻؿ˵ոյ𣿾ûĳԼҲܶԸɣΪһŮĹϵһҪܵüεɧţϰȥЩ˵ɧţոԼɣǣƶĿƵ˸ոΪոǸ˵ضˤļֻԹܣüͷ𱸵˵"֪֪һϵɹŪûˣҪ֪⼸ҩˮҪԣҿǲҵˣ"ʵǺҪģϵܷ˳ҵԼںԼΪģ
"㩤"쵰֪мԼֻԹܾҪߵ˵ũߵĸоǸ׳ũ򣬿ƶȻˣƫƫԼǸ׳յũ򣬶ϲҪ
̾ʰõϵĲк׼ʼµҩˮĿƶ˰죬˼˵"ոǸ˳ûߴԸϣһоûУ" 
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"˶Ļʲо"ƶĪؿɧųʲо
"ͬ"ΪСĵ˵ضƶ
"޹᲻ᣬͬΥȻɵģֵĴڸΪ˷ܶʹֵ"ƶûжػشͬĻΥΥȻɣǲܱģıȻɲܵõİҲҪȥһԣ......ΪʲͻȻʣʲ
"ͻȻʣ"ƶһ˿Ϊ֪Ľš
ܲ˵ԼֱͻȻϲ˰ɣЦһ£ε˵"ûʲᣬֻ˵кܶף̲סһ£ѵûһ΢ҡһµģ"
"ûС"ʲ˼ΪԼһ
"ûа......"ǲǶԼҲһоһ㶯ҡҲûУ"ʵ˵һĺܺ棬Įϲ"
ʵڹܲסԼͣ˳ǵƶĬͣϵĶЩڣԼò׺ͿƶЩǢĹϵԼʽˣǵģƽʱ椵ʱһסģԿƶⷾؼ
ƶĬȻעеԹܣ͸Ĳ֮ϵӳˣøԻ˵ȷʵĮԴĸȥᣬǹ¶һ˻ܺº°һʧȥһˣҲ֪ǲһںڰ̫һ޷ƵԾڰе⣡ڵһۿᣬ֪ԼҲ޷԰ˣֻΪܹӵסһ⣡
"ϲ......"ƶ˵֡
"ʲ᣿"òǺ
"ϲһˣѾϲܾúܾ......"ƶ˵˵ãһúƶѾϲˣϲǸ˺ܾúܾˣԼһϣûˣ
һƺʲ
ͻȻЦڵһ״ЦԼھǣ˸ողŷֵǣڵԼǸոʹʹشһһŮˣǴûпʼԼĵ˼ѣǿЦһû¾ȻһˣѵŪŮ˵ıӦ𣡿ȴЩŮ˻磬޵ʸûУ
""ע⵽ͻȻƶַסڸոһ̣ƺߴҵض
͵ؾѹ̲ԼǿԼһ˿Ц˵"濴㻹ͦģͷϡС"
"أ"ƶ۾Ҫ͸һ
"ʲ᣿"ͻȻoؽ䱸ÿƶЩ⣬ֻջǿ˿ڣ֪Լӵ⣺"ῴͬ"
"ͬ"ɵʼ磬"ûѧ˱Ӳ̫û˼ˣҲܸ......"
"ϲӣ"㵹ÿƶ⣬Ϊĵ˾ȻϲӣΪ˵ӲǻĸƷ
"ѽ"˵ӣرú뵽˱ԼСܶĵܵǣϾ˻ĵ΢ЦǼĳӣĸر࣬һͰĸչ˵ܵãȵһ㣬ܵΪĸֵӾرϣԼҲһȺɰĺӡһε뵽Լ룬ӶŮһƽֵֻǲ֪ʲʱǸģӵӰѾƶȡˣЦһӿɬ
"ĺҪ"ƶ̸ӶԵøͣЩƵġ
"ȻӿһͥĿĹ"תͷƶ۾ͻȻһƶĺһܿɰĺĽǸĽŮˣ"ԼĺӾͻˡ"
ƶûлشֻǾ˼ĺϲӣͻȻ뵽ǰյһϣ......βӵһͬĺ......ѵҪȥǱߵ
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ƶǰⴱƵĸ¥óУԣһӲߵ˴кһƶصĲ̤¥ڣǰ̨СӭЦе˵"ãλ"
ƶһ£һ֣"Ϲ"
ǰ̨Сϵ΢Цɲĵʣ"ԤԼ"
"ûС"ƶܸɾ˵ǰ̨СЦ΢Ӳ"ܱǸ......"
"ү"ǰ̨Сܾȴһߴ˴ӵ߳ƶԾؽһ䡣
ƶͷǸߴˣͷܴ󣬴üеܳĵ̣һװһīȥϴ󣬿ƶϵϹڰ?̩գһܼϹ⡣
ȻӰߴ߳һݵĶˣͿƶߣ൹غͿƶмƣĿƶûа⣬ֻü԰˵"ȡеԤҲ뱻š"
"ûҪ"ƶȰ""˵ڣͼػؾˣ˶˵
ϹֻǿһۿƶĮĳ̶Ȳ춿ƶͷתȥһ"";ԳһȥƶĬظ߽ȥһֹصţԾſڡ
Ϲ⿴Լͬĸĸ磬ûرĸ飬ʵϹνֵǸЦûг޾ͲˣƶҲϹΪѪͳԳ˳ϹҵȨսûʲ⣬ĴԼкȤ
"Ǹƻ˻ش"ϹȿƶСһ꣬ʮȥΪϳɡ
""ƶκθ˵ҪϹļƻ̫ˣԲմϺϹκιϵĶ
"˵ɡ"ܿƶʲܰ쵽һ쵽ΪǸƻҲڱصã
"ҿԽϹҵоҵĴָģоɹҲ⹫ΪϹ׬ǮĹߡ""ɽ"
ϹˬشӦˣƶòϹٶȣڶյXоĵ绰Է˵ĲŻԸ⣬Ƹ¼ȡһ߶һоXоϹҵġ
Ȼ˷ܵüֱû˵Ҫ֪Ϸооܽ﹤ÿһе˶ģһƶЦ춼ֵһްˣƶļ˵˵"ˣװѧܣ֪ұXо¼ˣһڣ"
"Ŷ......"ƶûйϲӦҲ䵭س棬ҲֻӦҪǿƶ΢ЦϲҪܳأ"ʵϣҲյXо¼ú"ƶƵ˵һ߹۲ı顣
"ϲ......"ϰԵ΢Ц˵ǸȵصƶһʱģȻסƶΪ˷ܵ˵"̫ã"̫ˣԼͿƶһˣ
ûϵӵƶ˲ͨҺûпֻûʼӵƿ뵽ʲصſ˵"˵ƶϵܣҲ̫ǿˣһҪ㡣"
ƶֻǿҲ𻰣ҲȲƶĽӻ˵"ϵ㵽׶ˣ"ĮòһֱԼ䣬ողͻȻ뵽һӾԼͬ꼶ϸƺҪûҪС
"ʮ"ʮСɣƶȴ֪ιȥⷹȻˣԼС꣡ԼҪö࣡
17
"ģʧˣ"ոȥСݺݵץһԼͷ
ֻС󲢲һ󣬶һֻеȥ൱ķ˼ʵͿƶѾоͨʹһһŮһөŮ˻бԵΪĸ첢ֲӹ˵أһ൱ʵ飬ͬһԽᣬһγۺһֱ̥ȻҲֻƶı̬ó
ʵϣƶԼĿмƻʱҲһһΪƶϲǸԩоȻͿƶĽ̽ʹĦóĽǿƶϲǸŮ˩Ǹ൱зŮˡ뵽һ㣬ֿɬ˭õŮ˶İʵһˣˣʱ䲢̣ʱӣԼһʳӣ춿ƶԽԽأȴҲ䲻񫣡
"ˡ"ƶո뿪һ£ȵʱ򣬿յץԼͷҲ֪ʵһεʧˣԵ̫ƽʱĽİš
"˵ƶ㷴Ӧ"˵ⷺôһ˵ķӦвУ治֪Լ׳յذ
"һֻѡ"ƶʼƽùͷҪʲᷴӦⱾΪƭϹʧʵ飬ֻܳŵȥҲǹǿˡҲ֪ϹãŪϹ˾֪ʵ֪뱻ϹҵЩãںܾǰͰʵתȥоˣڱֻʧܵİƷ
"㩤"ͻȻԼⷻһ䣬ʲָģڴֻͻȻȻصƶ˵绰̴ֻһŮ"Ѿ˵ˣڲأỹ"Էƺ
"ŶԲ"̻Ц"̫Ǹˣʵҵֳˣҵһ£ھ͸ϹȥҸ˵һµȤҩ"
"ᣬɣ"Էƺͦع˵绰
ƶɵ˵"ˡ"
ƶӲصͷĿȥıӰֽȭͷָԼûãһˣǶԼһ˼ûУŮѻһһԼʵÿҪץѵԼҪǿģӵ𣿿ܺ£һԼ......
18

ڴͷһߵĴƺڸոյļȻһ̳ĲŮһֻΪ˳ԽһΪƶĶԽǺŮһԽʶԼֵĶҩɾˣ
紭Ϣļϣ˵"̫ˣÿζȤҩ"
ǳǳ΢ЦȻֻǳЦϵľЦ˺ܶ౶Ǹӵʵʵֻ֣ҪǿƶСоĹ׻ȤҩƷĿϣɷϣԵϲãǷҰޣԼϲȤҲȤҩƷֻΪΩԼŮ˲ٸȤ......
"Ҫ𣿾Ͳҹ"ЩؿƿԼӴʼ·ǵһθоǳζûĲԼϣԽԽںÿʶʵǺԼ棬ҪУ
·ѵˮһЦ˵"컹ȹʱݼˣȥȼ١"
΢תõЦ˳һǣЦЦתͷҲصߵˣһɭ
˵µǷܴ磬ȷʵ£Ϳƶһȥһũ֣鷳ƣЩ
ڶϣǾȥũʱǶϢʱǸպܹһ򾡡
ĵػܣ󲻹һ飬ѾˣʣµǹԱ£޹أǵģΪ뿪о΢һ㣬һơ
ͻȻ۾һڲݴһֻ˶ĺɫֻȥ൱׳ҷǳĻ飬Ͳ֪۵ĻǴƵģ۵ĩٺ٣ܴȥʵ飬ҰӦñʵЩСǿܶ౶ɣ
һӱ˷רҵĲܿؾͲ׽ֻɫҰ󣬿ȷԱ֮ᣬͱø˷ˣ̲סøƶҫ
"٣ƶץסʲ᣿"ҡװĴ˿ƶ
"һֻѣ"ƶһĮ˵
ȻЩ춿ƶĲʶƶ˵ִҪкܶʱԴת"һֻǳǿ׳Ұʵ飬˵ЩһСҪõöˡ"
ƶû뵽뵽Ұʵ飬ϣʵɹԼһٵʧǲǶĴܴ"˵Ķԡ"ƶͬҰȥʵˡ
ڻо·ϣƶĬؿ˷ޱȵˣŪֻɫ̲סʣ"ʵɹ"
"Ȼ"ҪҲûؾͻشˣǿƶļĬҲԼαװһʧĺܴ......ֲľѿгɹ׸Ϲңһοһ£ȵֻ˵......
صоᣬƶһηǳظɫȻǳɹģҺܿأֻгɹˣҲûǰһ
Ȼ֪ǰǿƶ˽¶ֽţΪֻҰʹһһؽӽɹһʵɹƶܿܳΪʮһΰΰ֮һоԼϣһжá
ЦضԿƶ˵ʵɹȥʾףûע⵽˵仰ʱƶɫжѿ
19

Ĳɵغȣ͸ȹĳûעԱߵĴ˵ЩʲᣬʵֻӦþͿҪ˰ɣȵƶЩɰ󱦱ǲ֪᲻Цһ뵽ƶǳǳ΢Цͱ÷ǳ
""ע⵽ԼѲûԼ˵ò
"Ŷ˵"ʶԼһ˿Σ΢Ц˵"ǸҸոֻҪĩȥȼ١"
仰ôԭԼӣֻǸոյĻ˵һ飬׻һŮӵ֣΢Щ˼ͷϴ΢ߺ죺"Ҳʮ˰ɣǶСˣҪ......"
ϲӣ֪ϲҲҪܹĹϵȶ˽⣬һ˺ͻҳԼ
"......"ĬĩӶŮһȥȼٵʲʱԼңԶˣԴӰϿƶû룬ܹͿƶһ𣬵֪ǻ롣
̧ͷ磬̾һҲϣܴӻ߳ϽЦζʹֻ࣬ǿ"......"Ůڴ˵"ǻᣬҪӡ"
ɫһӾͱѿǺԵľܾ
Ҳ˴ѿɫο˵"籦ǹҪȵҺоĺͬ뿪оԼɣʱܲȶ......ϣܸԼĺһȽȶʵĻ"Ҳٹܰݲܵİ뿪ƶǿʱ䶼ûãο......
Ļɫɫ˲٣ڿǣĻҲ޵ֻûע⵽һҵһ¡
ƶûд͵ԼᣬֻǸոڶ飬طŮԼᣬ뿪ʱԼ˵ȵֻɫСҪȥ飬ְͲסԼеĴ⣬͵͵ĸڣߵλаǽûзԼǵһζԻʱȻҪ뿪оҪ뿪ԼȻὫŮ˹һӣ
ǰδеظе˿ֻţȻǰҲŮһ𣬵ǴûһŮŮѴùڻŮӣŮ֮ȫȻûѪɫͷŶ԰׵ͬˢ˵ǽԲø˵ģ
ƻȵɫҪʱٶֽţֻĺһȥʹʵʧܸգӦʱŮ˽˰......
Ů˽飡ǾԲֵģ
ûע⵽ӰȻȥû뵽ȴһ䣡
20

ڶϣһϰ࣬Ÿյоʵҵάϣܹ˵ƶȥæάǴԶݣʹʶҲΪάĹϵάְ˰죬ʹӦˡ
ʵ˵Ҳûʲ˵ƶȥæ˭˭Ӷؿƶһӹȥæ˵˰죬ƶһʼԺɫܿ⼸ҪΪɾܾԼԼĥӲĥ˵ᣬƶ㻹ǴӦˣȻһҲȥæˣҲһ
ƶȥæʣһˣ͵СˣҲĵģͻȻͺɫһСֻСͺɫֵģְ֣ĽһǺɫҪ˰ɣ
ϽܹȥһֺɫǵʰԼСѣҪӣһҸϽӣʹץɫһ̣鷢ˣ
ֻСҲ֪ԴʲҩȻݺݵҧסָʹֻϽ˦̳֣˦֣ϣܰС˦ƫƫСһҲ֣ʹҪˣ
춣˴ʱ佫С˦˳ȥ˲Լָϵ˿ڻͷӣˢˣ군ˣɫ󲻼ˣ
ֻҪܻߣʵҾӵȥ
ˣˣȵƶҪύæ绰ƣǰѰֻɫϣڿƶ֮ǰѺɫһ
ȻԸΥɫһ׵׵ʧˣҶҲ˱ƾ͵춾¥ƶڵһʱǰ
һƶԶԶɢߵϢ군ˣˣˣ
ƶϴԸܹȥæǱæͻȻһɧƵ˵ʲɫᵽͳûܻˣԶͿָѪҲһ£ˣڸʲ
"һ£"˵֣üͷϸϸģǱҧ˵ģȻ˿ڲѪҲѾֹסˣͲСһ뿪һͱ¨͸ҪҶֻֻҰδѱǳˣͲ
Ϊʺɫܵ飬һڿˮӲͷƤһЦ˵"Ǹ......Ҳ֪ƻ............"
"ܣ"ֻɫˣƶЩȣû뵽Ͻʵһ飬ȻˣҲãʡȥ£Ҫĥᶯֽţ˷һ˰ˣŪʵǰ¿²򵥵ؾŹ᲻Ὺ
У뿪оһ뿪ҪǸŮһˣ
ƶ˼üͷҲԽԽȻ֪飬Ϊ飬ɫԽԽأҲԽԽɽðɣԼˣ............ûе......£Ҳɥ˵"ðɣƶҳҲԣѾˣܲȥСʵɣ"
ʵ飿û뵽Լĵһ仰һҵݺݵػпƶû뵽ʵȫѾ죬ҪǾûģǴȵҲԼٶģڿҪȵҲԼңңڣٷչȥԼԶʧȥ
Ǹӣ......ҲпΪӺԼһ𣡾ԼҲܱȺԼΪİ˺ã
ƶȻضıһطֻ˵˵ѣⷲҪԼȥС......
"㲻............"ûаѻ˵꣬ٿؾ㵵صƶǹǰɣҪԼʵ飡ǰ뷨
21

ͷ......Լʹ......
ͷĿѣҡ˼Դ֮УƺһϻζӰ˿ƶƶ͵۾Ǹ쵰ȻԼǹ
""ȻԼ̶֫һϣɴ۾ؿԼ壬Ȼȫһ󾪻ţϽԼĸȻոշõ˿ڣȻСֻһϸϸĺӡǴԼʹĸƶϣղ......ղſƶԼ˰ɣ
ܣᾫܵһǺɵģ
"ˣ"ƶˣЩŵؿ"ûиоرĲ"ȻʵаգʵʩĶһͱرŲԼһ
"Ļ쵰Ķʵˣ"ݺݵڹ˵ԼСˣ
ƶһľ񻹲ûʲ⣬"㾫񲻴ܺá"
"øƨ"³˵ҲֻпƶûûεļⷲŻ˵ڻãһ˿ҵͷ׵һ̨ԿŶһͷѾ׹ˣ
˵˰죬ŷһȫȻİĵطɨܣ˾ܵĿѧܶණûмģȻƹڻ⣬ǽܵǽڸоĳңطȥЩƻƬĳһѧ˵ʵң......ʵϣƶһѧӣﲻʵҰɣԼ൱ҵسΪʵĲ֮һ""
"Ҽҡ㲻˺ܶΣ"ƶؿӦòӰԷӦɣ
"ңң""ϻ"ƶԿ׳յǵң
вˬȻܶûÿζڵ˭ֻ֪̬һڵڶҲģξȻûзֿƶиĵʵң
"ĶҶ"Ȼȫȷһ䣬ϣĳ漣֣漣ĸΪ
"Ȼ"ƶԵؿĶӣӦòþͻͬĺӰɣһ뵽⣬ͻȻڴĺӣһú۰ԼСʱĲ......
Ŀ΢ƣڻŨܵë֮еԣɫЩƫóѾʹùΣһ뵽ӵйͼʵطҪϱ˵ζ׵׵ϴҪ͸ 
ƶԺȻǰʵֻԼӣԺԼȡֻͷһȣ˲˷Ӧٿ쳣
ĿβΪ˫ȱطֿǸѨԼԼسǰ͸ˣ̲ס˫
"ʲᣡ"һظоƶȻ˫Լΰ̧꣬ͷƶʱڿƶпǳ......Ӳɣ
"»ҼȻʵ飬ȻҪС"ƶ˵Ȼ֮⣬һʡ
㵵ؿƶѵ˵ƶԼȻƶѾܾã˲ܶԼϲһԻ붼ûУǣĻﶼԼϿƶɴûһԼᱻƶļϣ
"ȵȣ㲻Ҫϰɣ"ƶֳ̨ЩӲƺҪֱӽ룬ʱȻߣⷻʵѽֱӾˣҪģ
ⷻľֱҪˣǽյѨûκ󻬵½պƶҲ岻ȥÿһεſڶݺݵؾܾˣü
"ιôҲҪеǰϷ󻬰ɣ"ǳεشƶ޹ؿԼԿ϶ⷾһУ 
"Ҹ죿"ƶǳĺѧ
"ٸ󻬼û󻬼ҲЩ֬Ʒ"췭˸ۣˣ񾭲ȻһԼСĻ쵰ǿԼ
22

ƶʮֵ̣ܽܳȥѰ󻬼˰վóΪ󻬼Ʒͻصʵҵʱˣⷻ浱Լʳ""ѽȻȷʵϵ......
ƶͰ죬ֿٴ̣"ⶫã"
Ѿڵòˣ֪ⷲͬԸѵûпAVʲ"ңʮˣǸУAƬûп"
ƶѵһãȻʵⷸͲڻ˽û"㶼ʮѵûзһ飡"ܾⷲ䵭
ƶüͷǺܿĵ˵"ֲ㣬飡"ʲ᲻Եģ˵һʥ飬ĶȻҪԼϲˣǸŮ˾ϣҰûʲ
ͷһۣⷻǴͷβѧǸĵԣûУ㲻ڵĲҲǳŵģҪּһĸоָоܲ
"ⶫã"ƶЩͷ壬ΪڼֶѾʮˣĻǺõĽ˶ǲûмʵɫƤڵƹ֮·ɫĹΣǳգ˾ҵķӦҪ
""ŤͷȥܲܽԼ˵ԼǸѨҲ˵ĻοһϿƶǱƶŮļϣ
ƶԽԽ㣬ӲͷȻ˵ֻԼĥˣȻڣžĨϵİɡƶҲˣѵӣԼϺҵͿĨһЩͣٴ̨̧β׼ǸСѨҪȥ
һǿҵظоƶͻԼǸϻȥⷣʱߣ̲ס"ôָȰһ£"
ǵȵƶһȻӣˣӽˮˣֱڹƶɵԼ
ƶ̽͵ͿĨԥһ£ʹָŽǸȫûбĴŮأָĽȻҪԽ׵öָ࣬ͷĶ΢һ㣬һӸָǸ۵ĵطȻЩܲס
ʹصһʵ޷ܵشе"һһָҪȻܲˣ"ðɣˣƶǱҪԸĨˣЩƶʾԼѪֻСƵ⣬㲻СڿƶΪԼİȫ룬ظƶָָγԵԼ
ƶʮػһָĶЩ³޳ָһӾûǽյĶѨ֮УɱʹԵؽĿƶȻָ΢΢һ£ָⶥıĤϣ
"ָģ............Ӧ......"޷Ҫһоһ˵飡
ģƶ΢˼һ£Щ׹ָضһһذǸʮɬĶѨǽϵĸ½ذԼָĺԽԽѣʶҲʼЩԼĿİĸоʮֵ޴롣
"......"ָĳһʱ벻طһ˿õҲ΢ķɣȵԼȻҲ˷ӦѲԼ0
23

ƶܵһָ鳷ĶҲԽԽػصؿĴŮءָоЩܣֵм⾷Σǵƶڵĳһʱ˵ĿУڴָһεعһ㣬أǰҲ˷Ӧʼ̧ͷеüȿǰҲ뱻֫Ͷˣֻƶ"ƶ............"
"......"ָ⴫ĸ¿콫չˣ̰ԼǿнڣΪƶøɳƣĳջĴԣҲʼʧ
"......ְ......ǰ......"۾͵ŤӣսƶļޡƶһסԼҪܲסһַֻŵϣϵŪ
ϵı˫صĴ̼Щ޷ܣƶɬȴӼڵ飬ϵŤ壬ࡣ
"......"Լָϵؽڲķɫⷭƶ۾ͨҲ̼ܲԼָ˫̧ʵеԵβΰ߲׼˵ĶѨͱȥ
 ȻԾͲǰָ˳ƶǺƴĶѨͬʱβԽԽ
ԸеʪĶ˲ϵĦԼѨΧеƤЩܲˣƶܣﳤ̾һ֪Լòʲ롣
ȻҲȫûⷽľ飬ϾҪȿƶ֪࣬һЩ¸ʹ΢ԼѨڣԷƶĽ롣һ棬ƶþȫ춰Ѷ壬һһƺʼƶһͣûӦͽ˸ȫˣ춽壡 
"ʹ쵰һ......"ǰƺû𵽶ãĽʹʹǰԶЩȥԸоԼﶼҪˣжֻ֫ػζ
ʹƶԥһ£ǸأֱϴĽ˲չԣʲҲܵظҵس鳷
"......쵰......"ƶ޹ɵس۳ϵײĻģԭľʹתĿУȥҲ̧ͷĦ˵ĸ䣬
鳡֣ⳡ·ϷҲʧԼҲںܾǰڴⳡ԰ʹǿȵ״̬£ҲֻǸƶĳ鶯ͣҡԼյΣƶƶĹĶ£͵ļӿٶȡ
"............"Ұе׳ϵػڣ֮ĦĻԽԽ󣬽޷԰εԽԽ
ƶһɶԽԽԽԽ޷ʴӡһȼԼذڶ壬ԱϴĽ̨亮񽫻˱֮УȲصļ尾˶Ƶ±ϣǰ˼Ҫƫƫܶ֫ˣҪˣ
"ſң"ǣѾȫĿƶϵڳ鳷ÿһγ̶ҪĶӴһ춣ڵĳ鶯Ȼֹ˶Ǵѳֲסؽ˶ŨľҺ׸Ĺ
"ҽ......"ɳ˵ȻƶѾˣٸְԼ......͵أһطԼڵ˶һε״򲻻һΰɣһΣҲȰһΣ̫ˣ"ȵ......"
"ҲҪٵˣ"ƶ̻ؾ̫ʱˣҲѹ̫ˣۻһ򿪾ͱһʰһʳѻƬ˾Ҳ޷֪жҲҪʳ......
ģֲһ˵飡쵰Ҳδ̫ˣĵ׺ݺݵȴһ취û......
24

ʲʱˣ
ǺԸ۾۵ĵƹ۾ڵ嶼֫һʹòԼ壬°......
"Ƿ"ڸǣִĽʸУֻû䣬һ磬ҲûоʲѹԼϣҪƿ""һֽžȻ޷
ˣȻ۾ѹԼϵ賓ƶĻ쵰Ǹ컹ǿҪΣǼ蹻õģԼϲҲԴԼֱǲԼ˿
"......"һŷԼĺͷɬ΢ԼҪˣ
ƶоԼµƺڶԴԺѹƷҪܶΣֱҲеƣ˲ص˯ˣˣһҹ˯õһ֪ԼҲᰲȻ˯һлҲԼԲܶˣһΪ˵ģ......룬ֻܻսư"뿪......"
ͷʹҪûƶ˵ʲᣬֻԼϹȻ⿪Լֽϵ"ſ......"
"ũһӶţ"ƶĻŵؽסһһȣ̵ؾǸմӿóһæ̽Ķͷ죬ڷգ
ģ̫СˣԼ̫³çŸոնûãԼǿҪز֪ڶȣϻ˯̨ϣԼ̫ˣ
Ͻ̨ļҪ¥ϵĴȥܿʶѾܳܵķΧ仰˵Ϊ˶ĿǴ绰а?̩æ˵ҵģ......
룬ԼıϣҪȱҪһЩֻЩԲǿǿײײؽ¥ңŵϣƶѾˡ
ԼҵķҳһЩҩ£ҩ˯˹ȥƶؿɫԲ԰ԼǺ⣬ǰŪһ......
"ү......"ƶûбͻȻֵŵϰ˰ϢسԼķ
"ʲ£"ƶκ¶ȵ
"үҪ͹ġ"Ҳϰ˿ƶĮ֪Ϊʲܾүү̲סԿƶҲ˼ֹģүΪ˴󶯸λҪүү֮ϵΪأ֪½үͶ绻ɱˡ
 ƶתͷְһɫĴӣӹһиʽҩˮͼƬԼһ춹ȦĺɫƤȦĸ״Ķһң"Щʲ᣿"
"......"εؿһȥү㱨Ȼͱү......յȥˣڴϵʱЩүߵ״οүүүƺ԰ЩǷȱ......궼ûп˳ߣЩү㲻үѵúĵЩ......
"Щҩˮǹ˾Ȥҩˮү˵ӦЩҩˮķߣʹ˵顣"ЩķȻԺ˯ڴϵЩͬؿһ뵽ЩҩˮԼҲ˲ٿͷ־ã
"ЩƬ......԰Ƭ......ү˵үҪǿⷽѵ˵һ......һֻԼһ............϶ûй˼Է......"ҪүȻĻҲҪԼͻȻүǶүҲԼ
ƶûϵϹԼֶһˢ˵껰ᣬ˴µСһͷԼȷʵûй˼ѹ˯ʱı鶼ʹ......
"......"ܿԼĲڣɫƤȦԿƶ˵"ƤȦ˵ģֻҪڶԷĲϿöԷһΧֿ뿪Χһ뿪ΧǸɫƤȦͻ᲻ϵصԷֻǺܲ"ָĸ״ʺң"ĸǷΧ޶Ƿŵָλãȷ֮˿ԻķΧң趨ͽģһƤȦûң޷򿪣ңťҲöԷܵ"
ƶԥһ£ӹƤȦĲϣȻὫĸΧ޶ŵԼӵĸúһУְ໹ûߵؿࡣ
಻˼ͷȥ϶˼ߺ죺"Ǹү......ĿҲŮһ"
"ǵġ""ܲи֮......"֪үү뷨Ҳ뷨ԲүԭΨһһε˽......
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Ŀʮֵ£õؼӣתͷڸϵӣ"װģȥ棿"ͷƶWʱ͸ˡ
"㡣"ƶѵ΢ЦԼֱƮҪˣ
"䣬㲻˵Ҫȥ㣬Ȼտ"ŵһСкͷ̽Ϳƶ֮䡣
䣿ڽпƶƺ治ϲǽһ"ְ"ŵһСк̲˵"䣬˵Ҫȥɽģ"
"װģʲʱҲʼŵˣ"ؿƶƶؿЦ˵"˵ʲѽװӡЩŵƵˣ"
"ңӣȵȣһ£"ʵͷˣˣ
"ʲ£䣿㲻ˣ""Ǿǣ"кվͬһսϡ
"ѵ˵ǵ䣿"оԼҪεˣһ״
"ϻ"ͬ˵ƶĶӣ"ӶˣᵽʱͻȻװͿˣ"
㵵صͷԼĶӣȻǺܴ󣬵ǺԵͻȥµУ......ɣʲ߰ѽ
"Ҳɷ"غһ䣬Ȼ
""һѶͷ亹ͷԼĸûãֻζѣԣ̸о˲ԾޱȵķϤˣǿƶķ䣡ֻҪԼûʰҵҪÿΪʰģÿʵڿȥĿĶ˿ƶ㹤
ʻЩᣬԾͻȻ뵽ʲɫһӱùˣƶǼⷻԼʵСˣһԸԼ֣˸ոյǸξ......øΪŹ֣Ȼĵ֪Ǹεչòջ˰ɣ
оĴںܲںɫƤȦ˼£ԽԽȻƤȦϴȫĵ֣ոյĵȻǿҵֻĸоܣ
̧ͷŭ֪ʱſڵĿƶⷻԼԴ
"ɣⶫΪ˷ֹõģƽʱ㣬һ߳ӣʱĵɾͲǸո΢ˣûרŵԿǴ򲻿ġ"ƶһͿϵƤȦͱòҪԼΪ˺뵽ԼĸףͻȻµؿȻеɫ԰׵سǰرסһ˲ܵŵĺһԵø
ͻȻΪһˣԿԸоƶصضõþˣѾһĿƶˣĿƶ̲סԾֻرסƶ"ԣûˣء"
ܺ棬ľÿƶĮ¶۵ı⾭ض൱ģһ뵽ƶʲ᲻ҲʹҲΪŻÿƶԵø䣬ʱ򶼿첻ϵˣҲں춱䲻ĻԼ޷԰εذ......
ĵص̾ϢǿƶԼЩ£Լǰƶ......
漣ذ˿ƶƶ̧ͷԸеıã͵شԼ촽ڵҪůο
һ£ǲûƿƶ෴ƶɬĿƶȻĶ֣ͷƶک¶ģĸ𣬱еĻҪȡƶеۡ
ƶǵÿҪˣֲԾ쵽βȻڲȥ
"......"ĺ׻δȫˣеһʹһסƶ֣תƶѹ£Ϳƶ˫ĿƶֻǾܵձЩ
26

"੤"һɫգЩ˼شӿƶϷ˵ʵĶӻƶոýҧһڣ"ޣ"̾˳һѾסƶغ"ٴˣٳԹˣ" 
ÿùڵĶдѽÿҶҪԼܵаʳҪȻҲܣҲӣⷾǸ׳գһ˹ӶֱܻǸ漣
ƶӴ޹ؿҲ˵Լζɣ"ҵںͲûʲ"
"岻ã㳣ʶܸаɣ"ƽʱ˵һһ׵ģᵽԼϾͱˣӰ嶼ֻʣһѹͷˣЩۣʶԼûд·ر˵"ȥ·ùȥ......"
"û·Ӳȥ㲱ϵȦһ뿪ӣҪܵĵɾԶʤ춸ոյġ" ǿѹľţƶʾȻҪܣԲܵģ
ŭƶԼǹ𣿻Ȧ·İȻԼҪܣȻľԼȻӱᵽڸûҪܣļƶҲ̫費˵ˣԼ˵ҲʶãȻ˵ԼʵԼˣԼ鶼ûУǸûûιģ
ԽԽݺݵؾһȭڿƶƯϣȻǴ󲡳ӣǸᣬûзĿƶһӾͱſڴϣһƬ졣
һȭ˵ȫ񫣬ҲԷйеĻһȭ˿ƶؿڽһȭĸȫóϰȭʱĺݾģû˿飡
ƶֻƵҧأйܹ쵱ɳҲԸ⣡
˼ȭʵǶûˣǷһɵϣģˣǴܶûһ㷴ӦΪԼӲأǾɥ͸ˣܸطӦ
ƶʹԴһߵѾ׵ڶЩѣ˵ʹǾԲܵģϰʲ鶼䴦ûзκʹ˼·ʹؿڣؿƺȴ֮ǰҪƵеһһطģԲҲʧȥ㣬֪Ӷ㲻ƽ............Ҳ˺ӣ֮Ĺϵͻתɣ
ӱҲùͱһ𣬿ƶЩԳЦĶӴĲ֮վЩ˵·"ʲ᣿ȥ"
бۿһǻѪ˿ƯرԼݣЩģԼ־Ͳһ𣡿ѿƶʲˣ˿̵Ŀƶȥ͸ˣ
ץ˼ͷû˵"ȥֽҿŵȥ"ȻԼȥͽȥɣȻڿȥҲ̶ãԼֲܳȥܲ˾͹йɣ
ƶתҪȥֽʣ̲סַԸһ䣺"˳õҩҸҩ"
ƶϵ˲ЦһһЦݣϲԼ޵ҧгݵֻ̲סԼĹ̲ס̲סԽԽ......
27

ȵƶȥӴվһԼ췭˸ۣûгܵãش򿪿ƶ¹ⷵ·࣬ȥҲἸǼݵøֻëȸûʲ·Լʹ£̾һֻΪѵóһԣ㴩
ɨҵĻ̲סüͷðɣµҵĻ
ȵƶССİʱѾʰϴһ裬ĿƶֻüָѶŵָλȥ춿ƶͺԼһϤ
ι˶ӣش˸ãͷüƶѵ˵"˵˶һ㣬ϳ٣ݵþ߸һ"
ƶϷ˵΢ЦԵؿȥΪָ촽ָĨȥϵʳȻԼĿС
""һ£̲ס¹ƶʲʱҲȻһˣ޵Ȼ΢ķӦ
ƶĺᣬҲպҲԿԼ"ѧϰ"ɹ
"ƶ"ƶͻȻ˵ڵأ㵵غͿƶĿԣ˫ɫľŨŨⷵķڵʱؾͷ飡
"......"ƶĶشսֲ֪ʲʱѾ̽ţʵϵĽСģ֪ŮػŮпУ֪ԭҲᡣƶѾʼ̧ͷˡ
ŲҪ0ţһץסƶתѹڿƶϣͼȨʼƶĲӣƶ˫ֱסııһһƣͻȻԡָȻѨǽʲҺС
ƿŹֵƶ"ʲᵹȥˣ"˫Ŀصƶֻ֣ϲ֪ʲʱһСĲƿǸȥͦƯƿһɫСƿϤˣȤҩҩЧ......
ģƶ쵰̫ˣˣû뵽ԼҩãѨѾʼˣÿԼ˲𣬻Ǹñܣ
ʲᣬǲϴĸоԾŤ壬ڲһŻ棬ϵȼȣҪʲ
屾ܵؿƶƶ¶ڴѾõ΢ЦǴ˿̵ֻͣϵĻ磬"............"ץƶŪԼȵ塣
ƶһ˵ϣҧȵ壬͵Ťһһڵ໥Ħȼ˴˵ļ顣
"ƶ"͵һƶȻͷס͵ԣŮҲԸΪԼڽģȣĿǻ֮УԾذסƶͷʪĿͦǾӻ
ʮֵĿ飬ҪʲᶫȥȻ֪ԼҪʲᣬῪڣֻܿβ͵ĦԴο弱豻Ѩ̶ֳȵİο޷ȿܴ͵ĶѨϽƶҪƶ
28

"......"̲סݳϵز䶯ӭƶֲŤ壬зģƶĸο......
ʹȫ˻ҵ״̬˫ۣͭɫʵڵذŤ˫ʶƵƶϣֻ΢΢ͣپƵԼᡣ
ƶץס֣򣬾ԼҲַȨ
"Ҫ......"ͼԸ㡣
"һ......"ƶɳ˵һʪȵ촽ѡԼСϣ촽º͵¶Ҫ࣬ʵžڿƶǰԼҵؽҪţСѨǲʼį䶯̰ڲĺ⡣
ƶ޳ʵȣǿβֱڴСѨȻ⻹һؿ˵СѨǳƯ״۵ɫȳƵ壬Ҳ֪ǸոյҩĹϵԼķڣۺѨڷõWĺ⣬Ϸڳ͸⻬֭Һ
Ǻƶ̾ԼǣĤһϸϸÿһޣͷ̲סջɵѨڡ
""ǸطȻˣɶֹطĽУ춵õذСѨõط""֮ͷĴ̼Ӿҵطڲ֣Ǻܿģͷ޷ΪͬʵòҪļĽ......
"............ƶҽ"ʱȥϺǣӱʵ̫ˣÿһϸڿҪᴩþȫĹᴩ
õ룬ҪѳֲסĿƶ̰壬˫ץסĽףȻ۳"U"ͣӲͦܵԳѨͦ
"......"ƶѸײڶٶȻ嵽׼ҲɱһʹŤת壬Ҫƶʱƶ˵ʲᶼ֣ǿƵѹס˫ȣڲĸ´̼ȫŬѧϰؼܣ·ڲײǿسڡѨϵ˺˶˳ڲǳʺⱻƵ࣬ȻӨҺһǿҲ뵷
"............"ܿӦ֣ԭʹ𽥱һֽܵĿȡµİ״尴ĦĿУŤβƶһһصĳ鶯֮Ħ磬ĵתѪҺ֮г׵׵ӵĿУʹϵ˽г
ÿһԿƶ˵Ĺ裬ϵؼӿٶȣÿһضֺݣ㼫ȿڡ
"......ƶ............Ҳ......"ԳܵشЩŮڽв˵ʱʲˣȻһܵסƶԣһڰ׵Һ塣ƶڲֿܣҲͷȵӡ
0Ҳһ˲뷨ܿģֿʼȼա
ƶոո̫ˣһ£ûһԼ𲻴ȫĿƶ˴
ƶҲо仯Ϣ˵"ȥϰ......"µȻһ˯ˣҪðˡ
Ҳãذ̫Ӳʺϳڵ......
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Ǳǿҵļиѵģʵϣһ㶼ѹɢ˼һֵ̧ûˡԸ۾ӳľǿƶƯףƤǳɫ촽ͦıӣ͸һӱסɫͷ˳ػĿƶ˾ǧ֮ıͯйӵ뻳ĳ嶯
λһͿƶᰲ˯ݣΪʵʱԿصظж鲻Խȥ˯ȷʵԡȷʵģһǱʲһһΪҸĸоҲ̲סؽƶ˸
ƶоԼ˱סѹĵһӦǣ"ҩԻûй"ɾˣԼûпƺһƿȤҩһҹѾ޷ٲ˲ͣԻЩʹº
һ㶣ȻȻƿƶȵ˵"ûأ"ԼÿƶԼһһΣͿʼȻغǿĺȫͬŮʱָо......ðɣһ0ţԼỳһ뵽ԼȫεĴ󸹱ӣɫѿŲҪǸӣɺ޵Ŀƶ治֪̬뷨
شӴ˿ʱ䣬ѾˣѹԼȻ˯ڲѹƽʱʱ򶼿Ҫ°......°࣡ػͷڴϲԸĿƶҡ"ϰ࣡" 
ƶؿһۣش˵"ѾְˣҲְˡ"ѾûбҪٴоˣҪ뿪ϹҵоһѵģҪлİæӦ˰Ҫ󣬲Ϲ֪Ϲ֪ʱϹԼˣûйϵ
ƶ죬ɵʣ"оǱ׼ˣ"оǩʮĺԼŵڣںͬδڵʱְҪ֧һʾ޶⳥ģҺڿȥ
"׼ˡ"ƶ˵֣㽫ԼϹҵĹϵԼϹҵϵ
"죿ûʲл"Ӻˡ
ƶһۣ۵ϣȻסŻȥ죬һݺݵƿ"ͷҹ"һҹֱˣҪˣǰΪ䵭أǷû
"ȥʲ᣿"Ҫ뿪ƶסҪ뿪"벻ӣ"
"ȥϴӣ"̲סƶһ٣ڵʵ̫ʹ˵ûС뵽ʲһͷһſƶ"ȥҼҸü·"
"յûд·ıҪ"ƶؿ壬ֱƷ֣κס
"ҿɲ̬嵽ܣ"˵еϣƶҲѹ·嵽ء
30

ƶǺܵ·˳ʰһЩճƷܶԼĶ⣬ǿƶذ·ʰã۵طûа취˭пȥЩʮֵؿ̰壬ѾЩÿ̡ƾ۵ûȥҲҪ߶죬ǳǳһЦϲԼ߶ӣһ߶߶һ߹ԼӣܸůůܰУҪĮԼӿ»ԼҪܣ
ʰöƶ˷ţѷãһطһİŮվԼᣬ磡
ƶû뵽ԼٺŮ𲻾֮ǰҪŮ˽飬ϵı˪ֺ˼㣬ϵĺôЩµǹʿƶ"֪ȥ"
һֱϵֻһֱ춹ػ״̬绰Ҳû˽ӣȥάϢάǰĴƶһְ˩һʵ̫춹ˣ˲ĸо˷һѰƺ˼һȫҲȥһϲϼңʧǣҲûлȥȫûа취£ֻѡһ޴İ취ļſڣ˵صȵ˿ƶĳ֣
ǰƶʵҵĴҲõѣȻ̸ˣÿһ˵˵ʱĿͻúᣬܲʧˣǺһְģֱһ֪䣬ҺܿΪǰ˶ʧٵģ
"֪"ƶӸµؿ磬ȫǳزΡ
粢ǳٶ۵ˣԵظܵƶǿҵĵ⣬ñŮ˻ҪƯҲûжĺøУ֮һöģΪҪ֪䣬˵仰"ʲ᣿"е"ҵԿף" ſƶ᲻֪
"޹ء"Ů̫鷳ˣٳˣģĶܿѾγ˵ĺӣһ뵽ЩƶӲ沿Ҳữˡ
ŮˣԽ羶ֱԼĳӣŵһץס"ߣңܿǷ"
ƶüͷ磬Ů˵оЩɢĹâɢĳΣյźţĸоë׶սܺŮ˶Ӿݺݵ˦磬ٵϳӣֻضһ仰"پˣһÿġ"
ɭؿƶȥĳ̣˭˭ÿһأ˭Ķƶ?ά˶ǰɣͲƾı»鲻ĵϸˣưɣ
31

ؿһӵĲˣס£ÿ춼ƶȥ˻ȻһζͺͿƶһܣеķһΨһǣ뿪ⶰӣƶ˳˺ϲ굽ʵȥоͣȻǸѧˣ
"ƶƶ"˼䣬ƶûлӦͿʼҾͿƶͷʵʲᣬһס֣Դ˵"Էˣ"
"......"ƶ˵һ£ǿؾͰѻ˻ȥεҡͷеʵ
ؿƶеĻԼ߳ʱƺԽԽˡ
ƶĬĬӱߣܵسںСʱɥʧζʳ˵Ϊάֻ³´лǳʳܾԼԵһζһʶ
"ƶ¡"һ߳һĥƶڣҪʥˣǻϲϼҹģһҲϣܹȥͿƶһȥʥڣ
"ʲ£"ƶ͵סʱ䣬ϵƺů˲٣Щ
"ʥڿ쵽ˣ֪ģÿ궼ҪϼҺ͸ĸֵһ......"û˵꣬ƶ"ž"һصطеףѵ˵"ܣ"
"ʲܣ"ûзӦĪؿƶȻ˼ת䣬ɫҲѿ쵰ԼһˣҪ𣡿......ҪؼȥĸȴֻỳԼ"ʲܣҪȥڣҵ˽⣬ҵɣûȨӹң"Ҳû˺Ƣ
"У"ƶŭİ𣬽ŭѹеĲԽץļ򣬵ŭ"ҵģҲ뿪Ӱ벽"
"ģߣ"ŭ"ʲ᣿ʵʵ"ϵطĿ̫ɵˣȻѪļⷵˣֻⷸԼ
"ǣҵʵҵʵɹҲߵģ"ƶ˵仰һɫˢˣԼ˵ȻֻһʵƷ
ץסƶݰƵڵϣϣŭ"Ϊܲȥƶ?ά˶ûһ죡"
ƶͷ˫Ŀøᣬҧгݵ˵"Ҳ붯Ϲҵң"ǲϹйϵΪ˵õͺϹҵǰ˶ϲ˹ϵˣ
ϹңʲϹңƶ˵ϹҲXоǸ춶ؼɣûƶϹûйϵĻ׵ؾְˣ"......ǸʲϹǩʲЭ飿"
"ûУ"ƶ̼Է񶨣񶨵̫죬ɣӦϹʲ᣿˵ֱԼʵ飬ʵϹԤıõģʵɹأԼͺϹң
ɫ˲ҰԭֻƶͻԼʵ飬û뵽ʵỹһ׮"......"̫ˣԭΪƶԼûĸ飬Ҳһоģ"......"һеһжԼ......
ͻЦÿƶ飬̲סָȴԥؾܾˣؿһۣĿĺɭǿƶģԼһǿҲûп
"......"""þȫһȭĸʹȻȥ
"Ҫ"ƶ˲ʹԵϽ׷ȥͼŸո̤ţ񴥵һڵϳ鴤
û뵽Ǹ۵ƤȦһ̤ţ񱻵һͨط飬඼ڲϵصǿҵö£쵰Բٻȥģ
ΪʲʹرסԼĸĸͻȻ˻һػʲᶫҪնһ۾ģΧҲһһʧ......
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""ƶ׷ڵϣҲ鴤ǰһ˲͸ܵǿҵĵֱܵɪģ̵ĶԸأ
Ͻóң⿪ϵƤȦȻ⿪Ȧɫûбúÿ٣šüͷǿҵŤ亹Ķͷբһһ£
鵽ĿɣɫҲüΪѿѪѪˣͻȻһͷԺһǧҪ
"õ˵"ƶĻҵطڵʵ̫ԼûˣѾȫذָպñĴڲﴫʪԽԽĻţ
죡벻Ҫ̵ضԴ
ﲻϵƶǿѹĵľ֣ذʵңƽʱ򶨵ڴ˿̱øĲ찡㣡һҪصĿƶһеأƽ......
оƺ˰ᶯãעȪϨڵĻ泩۾ͿƶǵҪͷҪģȻģ֮ǰĳܣƶĻ쵰
"ˣ"ƶ۾һոˣǵĺӲˣөƶĿ͵ؿĶӣѾǵĺˣ
"쵰"ݺݵƶһ٣ƶϽѹס壬˵"ҶСĺӣ"
"ӣ"ΪƶĻסһʼεûзӦͻȻĿɿڴסԼĸٿƶ˰ŽͰ͵˵"˵......˵............"
ָԼĸƶ˵ͷ˵"Ѿһˡ"ƶ뵽ո˵һĻͷǰǻ˵"㣡ˣ㲻֪ոжˣҺú......Һ......"뿪ˣƶûҰǾ仰˵һ˵µ¾ͻʵ޷ǻ
ؿһֻ˵СһɪɪĿƶǸƶһĿƶΪʲҪ£¶ʧʵƷܵϹͷ𣿾֪ǸϹض²ǲƴֵĴŸкᱳв˿ƶ𣿵ƶͰԼոճεĺΪƷ˫ַϸ𣿣ͲɶֹԼķŭӲͶݺݵƿƶ"㺦ʲᣡûϹҽ𣡹"
Ҫӣƶŵֹ"Ҷողˣ֪"
ԥһ£ܿؾЦ˵"ʲϵ㲻ºϹû"
ƶû뵽˵Ϊʲ˵̵ĻǺϲ˵"㲻ϲΪʲһٵҪϹңҺϹҲûʲЭ飬ʵĳɹǲϹ֪ģ"
"ΪҺܺƭ"ҧгݵ˵"Ϲûнףְ㿴ʵҵ豸ûӴĲ֧֣Ū"ֿƶһʵӵĵʵңЩ豸Xо޷ģϹҵɣĿƶ϶ԼϹˣ
33

ƶĬһЩ豸ȷʵϹṩģǲ²ϹҵĹϵҲ򵥣˵κԼϹҵĹϵ"ģҴûаͺҪ˭Ϊʵɹȥչʾ......ҺϹҲʲύ׹ϵ......"ʵΪֲҸܸܲԼʮǰʹ˰ɣ
ƶصͷе֣Īʲᾢ"ǺϹнף׷ˣ"
"......ΪҺϹҲ򵥵......"ƶԥ˰죬˵
"Ϲʲϵ"˼ؽʡ
"......"ƶͻȻɫò԰"ˣ𣿱˵Ϲ......"ֻҪ뵽ϹҵĹϵ뵽ϹǸ˵Ĺϵ޷ֹеĳˮȶ Լ˶û......
"ƶ"ɻؿǰסĿƶԼڳ˿һ˿̵Ŀƶ񱻿籩СһԵ÷޷˵ȥҲһν뻳аο"ûµģƶҲ......ûµ......Ҳ뿪......"
ĻǹϵħһƽϢ˿ƶĵӿϵĺ壬һһƽѪɫٴλصϣҲٲ
о彥Ҳɿˣֱø⸴ͻȻֺͿƶʶ࣬Ҳ࣬Ƕȴһ֪ƶһһż¶޹̲סҪڻǲȥ̽ڲ......
ĿƶɻԼòֲԸȥԼɵһ̲ס̾ϢסӣѾи
Щ˼飬Դӱƶʵʩ᲻ûԼܻỳУǵȵ˻ǾţҺģųӣ뵽һԼѪƶѪĺӣȻ̲סҪõЦΪоʵˣֻǿƶǻ̬ԼеģΪϹкԼΪʲ᣿"ƶΪʲҪʵ飿"
""ѾָĿƶûϵ⣬΢΢һ£˼˰죬"Լ˵......ʵ......"Ȼʵ鱾Ϊ׼ģԭһֱû뵽ֻɵɵصͨҪѣ벻......
"......"ǰɣûʵ飡ؿƶڿзȽ⣬Ǹ׳գĵһ仰ȴԼһһؽӽ룬Ȼг룬Ѿӵ˹ͬĺˣҲΪƶʵСҲڹͬڴӵƶᰮԼֻǿƶϲ˰ɣͻȻ뵽һ൱ص⣬ǵÿƶԼ˵ϲˣ
"㲻ϲںͱ"̽һЩ
"Ŷ......"ƶٶһ²ŷӦȴĴ𰸵ʵû""ֻ""""˿ĺӣܸ𣿸ԼѾϲʮˣϲҪӣһ£û˵ڣ¾ܾ......ҲȵӴˣؽԼʱٿ˵Ҳ٣᳤ʱȴˣƶסҪ˵аĳ嶯ԥ˵"......ں......"
Էϲƶƶֻǵ˼Ҳ˵Լлᣡ
"ƶϲ"º͵ƶͷ˵ЦԼϣӵйͬĺӵĻϣƶϲԼģ
΢ЦӣƶҲÿúסȻǶԵģҲܿͻԼһϲԼ"ѾкˣԻǹԹԵشɣ뿪ˡֻҪ㲻뿪ҲٰǸƤȦĲϵġ"ƶҪܣֲǸƤȦٴȥ
"ûҪܣֻһȥʥڶѣ"õ˵ⷣⷾ᲻Լˬ
"ţ"ƶĿԼ˵ԼһȥʥڣǲĿ￪ʼҲһΧأƶҪЦӦ뵽岻˵"Ŷ......úõԴϢӺ"
"Ǿˡ"ЩԽ˵ֻˣתͷƶԼڱ֮û......Ҫڵأ
34

ȻɵϢȥˣȻĻ䵽˿ƶϣȻƶڿǾԵţǺܵ׳յļǷܹķƶȴġ
ģƶܵ͵Ĳܵһ飬Ӹʽ鵽и귲صͳͳȻһͷ
һڴϸоʮֵģǴ˵绰˸˵ԼȥʥˣֲĿƶһڳ¥״һ˳ſھͿƶڳƽơӡԹܡ©ȵȣֱǰʵҰᵽ˳ƶƺƽڳʲᡣ"ʲ᣿"Ŀʣ˻ʵ飿
"ˣ"ƶͷ̽ŵطеĻϽһߵɳ£оԼĲޣֲŮˣ˸ۣ"ҲڴϣҲûоʲ᲻"
"֪֪ˣȵʱˣ"һ㻳еʶûУֻҪһѪӣǲԼزȥԼһ׷ȥһ״
"û£ڸʲ᣿"˾ϲʲ鶼뵽ȻʵҪӣֲʵ飬һȤûУ󷭰ۣʵڲԼϲһˣ
"ңҵȻˡ"ƶؿڳ˻ܸʲ᣿
"ʵĸʲ᣿"Ҫʵ"ҪȰһֻȽ֫⣬Ȼٽ֯......"
"ֻ˵ѡ"ƶصͷϸģ֤ɫζϵһģһ
ɵؿҲϲʳˣûıϿ˵ҪõЩ"˵ʲˣ"
"˵Ҫ1/2Сסں1/2Сס1/3Сסζ1/3Сס֭1Сס1ףţҪ40......"ƶػشûʲ᲻ԣΪʲƶҪõЩ˵ϸϵȥһҪѷ۳Ƶ40ٷȥƺп......"㲻ϸ˵ȥɣ"
"ȻҪһ˿"ƶȻ˵һҪεӣ̵ǵʣ"ˣﲻ"
"û......"෢ʹ̫Ѩ"ǳʵ......"
"ԭһ......"ƶһ仰ٴûԡ"鷳㣬Ҷ......"
"ģҶʵ൱"ƶͷֻص˳ʼĿʵ飬ʵڲ֪ٲȻʳﵱʵĿƶǸÿ޻ǸЦƶһɫϵƬ˵ûκĿʱ˵ܰЦݡ
"ζ"ƶŵ˵СѧʦԼҵһϹϾԱ߶ס
üһڴĿƶԾϵЦݣƶʵҲкܿɰһģһֻԼܿõ
𵶲棬һСڣ̫ˣ濴ƶⷣζ͸ǼĴһ׽ƶԼϵĽԽԽԣԽԽģƶҪžŹ˹ػһ䣺""
õĿ϶ƶŵϲԾ¶˺ӰЦݣڻϵıѩЩˣ뽫ЦԶϣ˫סƶ鲻ԽԼ촽ƶ
ƶʱסûԼ̻Ӧͷ̽˱еĸ¶Ȼ뵽ʲᣬ˫һ죬Լ˾룺"Уڻ"
"ֻǵҪ㡣"û˵ⷻǷùף˭˵ǾΪڱԼİ⡣
"ţ"ƶ¶ãı飬һ죡ܿƶӰ죬Ҳ˷ˣ
35

Դӳ̤õᣬƶƺ˽ʵҰᵽһʼ«ᣬ׵׵׿鱾ʼ
Ȼƶʳζǳ˭ϲһιϲΪԼóԵģȻһжĵ£µʱһӳ6ǾͲһ˿ĵˡΪڳĻΧƶֹСΧڣÿ켸˳Ծ˯оԼѾ׵ıˣ
14ܵʱĶѾʼͻʵ˵治֪̥ĹϵԼƶ˵ĹϵǣƺҲ˿ƶʳһ쵽ͣس޷ͣԼһؿٴֶ׵׵ʧȥΪʮзԱһԱʱ˵Ķ񺮣ȻΪ̥룬ֲܾ˶ϲ˶øˡ
ܿģһĳԳ˯˯ҲҪʲҲԲ£Ͱ£
໳18ܵȻ󣬼ֱ䵽㣬һ˵³ڵĵ5һϵ16ܾͻˣڳڵʱ򼸺ûκηӦϸоԼˣû뵽Ȼڵ18ܳص
ĶѾȽԵ͹ˣҪﲻʱҪİƶΪҲüΪѾڵʲʲᣬ̥״£ȴ½ƣÿƶϵĽ˼ȴ޿κΡƶѾ˸ʳŵ嵭ζŻ²ֹ
"ŻŻ"
峿һ磬ƶͱһҵŻˣ´嵽ͿһǽһַΪѵذѾ൱ֵͰŻθǿյĸûʲᶫ£ֻθ֭һ𵹳
ƶ۵ıĵʣ"û°......"
"û£ûԿŻ"ܵƢҲʺΪʲҪŮһлҪֻһԱ˵
"Բ......"ƶһıһߵǸڵǿƶƢԽԽƢԽԽ⣬ƶط˴ѾʵµɵϣһţСιغȣЩ԰׵ɫÿƶʹĽȥҲǰ취һҪٺú취"ʲ᣿"
"ͷҶ³˳Ըƨ"û˿ƶһһӣ΢ùһ㣬ðɣʵͦԼģһ뵽ܳܺȶԼȴǶӻܳйŭϳ壬ͷԼεĶͱøӷˣ쵰ĺʹһǻ쵰֪ĥԼ
"ţ"Ȼɴ۾ոһ£
"ˣﲻ"ƶ̽ŵʡ
ûֻǶȻַŵϣ......⺢ƺԼ""˲Ϊ˶Լ飿Ĵ
36

㶵ӣƶ͸ΪˣļĬ"ˣ"
"......"üͷסСԼĶӣͻȻüһչһһֿϵЦݲϵ"Ŷϵۣڶ"
"ʲ᣿ʲڶ"ƶȫĪ֪˵Щʲᡣ
"ƶƶڶǵĺںҴк"Ϊ˷ܵضԿƶƶһʼû򣬵ܿģŵָĶӣ"......˵......"
ƶѵõĿڳЦԼãһеظӵĴڣʶĲ׸һĺӣ
ĿЦݳԼصͷƶҲ˷ͷĸעԼĶϣ""
ŵĶһЩˮǸܵ˸ǵ˷ܣĺӴȵһ£ƶɴ۾ˣĶˣǵĺӣ
"ǵĺںҴк"ƶһѱס
"ǰǵĺӣ"Կƶͬӵ
̥תɾ󣬶ЩϤǶĸж޷סĳȣɵһЦ
õҲ˲٣˻е24ܵʱͲˣθҲúҲѾһˡ
ļڻʵë£ЩԼʹëҲڵĶӣһóǿԼȥȻЩһ߿ĿƶһҪкµʣ"Ҫʲ᣿"⽫ʱûгţͻȻҪŵӣ
"㲻ӦøЩʲᶫ"û˵ƶʱѾǸǳкڳڵʱȺúϢص£ʱ䶼û߶ǿˣҪڶӻûд׵ʱȥ͸͸˳Щ
"ͺˡ"Ȼĸͻͽܺ£еһвǱƭһ߳ȥͻ뿪Լ
"ҪȥߣڼһģҪȥһЩԺ......˳װǧ㿴"ĥƶǰԺһֱ̫ϧˣЩٷЩ򵥵ʩúˣ"ҪӾأǶ档"
ƶһ㶣ղ˵ǺǣǲԸԼĺӣһ""ÿƶõòˣذʰһ𿪳˸̳ûгλƶֻܵطͣ³һ˵̳ſȴһΥˡ
""û뵽ԼȻ̳ſʧ˰಻ƺЩ֣ΧҪǰһ£Ҳᵽڲźˣ
"磿"ЩԾȻԼûŮѣɣ
"㾿ȥˣ֪ҵú࣡"缤ǰסŷĶӴЩ֡
һ£æƿ磬˸˵"ҲûȥܱǸûк˵һ"
ظеԼԶ֪ʱǸĵά˶һѵϲǸǻˣѡǸǻһ"ҲŮΪʲ㶼ϵ"
"......ʮֱǸ......"Ǹؿ磬˵һֱԲ磬һֻΪ˳ǿƶ
"ѾŮˣ"ƶû뵽ԼԶܹͿŮˣǻһĺ飡
"ƶ?ά˶࣡"翴ƶ̳ͬѵҲʼղŮˣ
ƶʾԼȨסоͶĹĿ⣬Ȼ˵ͬڱȽϳǴ˻޷ܣԼƶ§Ůһ§Ҳù죬ƿ˿ƶÿƶüͷ
37

ĶÿƶеܲʶظоھܾԼͷһʹ÷ɫҲѿ
ʹӾǱϾԼжԲԷĵطҪѻ˵ίضԴ˵"磬ҺܱǸûһ......"
"ʲûһˣ"һӱ˫ͨ"ˣ㻹˵Ҫҹͥģ"
ĻƶɫѿŮ˲˵ѾˣҪŮ˽ӣŮˣģڻĺӣ޷ǵسŮ˴һʵǿԼ侲ƶؿǸŮһۣʲҲû˵־Ҫת뿪
翴Ҫ뿪æǰҪסľ˦֣Լ˦֣?ղķʿȻӶң
׷ȥͻȻߵֻ绰밴ǿ绰ͲΣæ绰"ι......"
"ʮߣ񩤩еˡ"ֻﴫ
"ʲ᣿"𣿻еˣ
ƶȫ·˶ԼͶĿ⣬קֱͣȥܸܵƶɢԽԽϢ⣬ò׺ͿƶǢķΧѵƻˣһ棬ϲƶڳԴϲԼ
"ƶȵ......ƶ......ҵĶӣ"ƶȫԼֻóԼĶȻƶͣס˽ŲŵػͷĶӣŵʣ"ˣ"
"û......"ƶ˵û£첻˵ӷ˳ӣѳӿߣ˼ϳ
Ĭӵؿƶʲ˼û¾ͲԼˣ˵׾Ϊ˶ӣںҲǺӣΪԼĺӣ쵰ɽӶԼãԼȻӵĴףƶȫûһļ󣬽ȭͷص˳ϣ"ͣ"
ƶȻӿͣ˪˵"ʲ£"ȥǸŮ"ȥǸŮˣڵ廹"
"ʲỰ"ƶĿǸŭˣ˵ʲ˼"˭Ҹģģ"ҪԼһģ𣿶ȻԴ˳ЦԼ
ƶȻתͷŭģ˵ˣԼֻΪӶ޿κζѣģԭΪֻҪԼںԼڷԼںҸķǳںһ뵽ԼľļһسʹҪҪԼ
ȭͷػ֮ϣһ̶ĳӿлͻȻ۵˸ϣرסСèһϵزϵظ˵"뿪......뿪......"
ͻĶһоĶ֮ᣬֲԾرס"ƶ......"죿ԼΪԼûиʱԼǰ¶۵ƶƶ㵽׽Ҹ죿ɽһĸоһ㶼ܣ
ƶ̧ͷĴȥůԼɪɪ塣
ĴزĴȻߣ̻Լķʽǣµ̽ƶЩĿǻԼ¶ȡ
ƶֲ֪·ڣƤˮȵս֪û̱ü......
"ȵȣƶ......ǻڳ......"΢ǿԼƿƶȻ·ϳ٣ǲûУǼȥʱб˷ֲԹĦĿܣӵʵ̫ˣȻǻû
ƶ˵"......"
һ£ܵ³һ"Ҳ......"
˲䣬ƶ˫ȻͷȡеĽҺ봽ҵײײĻ𻨳ȫӣ˫ֻסƶĲӣһӦսʿƶ
ˣһ𷢷ɣ
38

ƶ̰ظԲĶ϶ãȻһĿŨܵĴ֣һץסģԭڿƶŪ֮һȫƶܸоȻڲͣ
ָϵذ͵ĶˣеСڲϵطڳҺմȾƶ֣ƶֻ֣ҺŵƷǳĻ壬һ֧˷ܼһ̼ƶ񾭡
ƶס˷ܵԣɧζ˵˶󣬵ͷ˶ȵиУЩͷˣȵڿƶĿǻ֮С
"......Ŷ......"ذۣ΢΢ſ죬΢̲סְסƶͷͦԼβ
ƶһ˱һ۶ԵľɣϱߵѪȫȻʹʾ˵ĿƶĿڸ˱̲סطԼĿͷų""Ѿǵͨ졣
ƶһֻȥββøԸǳеԣƶԵָϵظŪĻŪѨڵ޾ǲȥ
"ޣ"ܵؽƶӿٶȣԲ嵽ԼĿǻ࣬Ȼһѣһ˶ȻУͱޱ˷
"ˣƶ......ɿ......Ҫˣ"Ŵ죬ͷϣ¶еʹ൫ʮֵֿı飬ƶое緢Ļɽһһ۽˿ƶĺ
ҵشϢΪոյ侫嶼ͨ죬͹Ķϲ˺ˮϢҵͼصɧƶġƶ˵棬ԼƵ£ԼϣɵһεĸǰˣһֻǻȵСѨſڡ
"......ƶ......гˣ"СĿռһټһ˾͸խ˴˼ȵϢüΪŨң˼û϶һгʻǿԼҵѹ
"ν"ƶں˵϶һ£ǿҵĸоԼĳȡ
Ȼ׶Լͥʲᣬһ˿ײ糺컮ͭɫ岻ò΢΢ǰ㣬Ϊ˲ѹӣֻ˫ֳڵ粣ϣ֪пܱ˿ȴ޷ֹ˷˱øΪС
ʵβԾڿƶĴŤÿƶָ̹̽Ѩ֮УȻûн룬춻еĹϵ׼ӵĽָһܼ֭Һ
"......"󻬵ӭܵǣָȥڲĸһһʴƶǡ
"......"иҵÿƶҲ޿̵ȥָ˶ͳݺݵ²Ϊ׼ܵ
"............"һ˲Ľ뻹΢΢Ĳʣеһиû뵽糱ˮӿĿ֮С
"............"ԶڳӵĿյϣϵشԶ˵ĿУǿҵ˶ڱһһֵضǯҧȵԣÿƶŭסض
ƶϵĳԼѹǰδеĽܶȽһ𣬾Υ԰һҪܲס޴ļͦѹĦڵʹ˫ϵת֮䣬ֱҪˣ
ʱܱ˷ֵĻ˷ܵȴһУһеĺ......
֪˼ؼҵģֻ֪ڶԼӻɢһزòڴϣ·̫񣬲ͦϲġ
ԴᣬͿƶֵ֮ѷҲõֲڶָֻۣԹǣιĻᣬĶԽԽڻڼҲûĻˡ
۵ʱĺۼתۼ䣬Ѿ38ˣӴԼĽˣòѼһֵҡоԼ͸ˣ
39

ԡ裬ԽԽʵڲ裬ԡף軹ԻӵԽԽصᱳʹ
ܵԡ壬˫ִزʱͻȻһ£ɫͷϾȻһЩǳɫҺ壬ȵվԼְһزһЩҺ찡Ůһˮ
ӣݲݲԼ壬߳ʵԽԼԽԽԼ壡
"ˣ"ѾϴڴϵĿƶܿע⵽Ĳһȥ鲢Ǻܺõӡ
"ûʲᣡ"ƲֵرɵӾҪ˯
"......"ƶϰԵؽճȥոϴøˬ壬ԼĻȵĴ֮ϡ
""ƿƽ󲿷ʱǻػӦԼ
"ˣ"ƶоЩĪӴһ뵽ԼڵĹģȫⷺģΪʲӣҲˣҪ......Ҫ......ͻȻԺиֳԼһӤι̵ӣȻһľԼȻһ㶼ų⣬úܰ......ˣˣ
ƶעоϵıԽԽŹ֣ڿЦʵںܹ죬еһҪƢŹֻǺģظɫ"о"
ûؿƶȻ˵ƶڶԽԽᣬɲ֪Ϊʲǻûʧģ̤ܲʵƶƯۣ۾ȻƶͷſȥЩĴͼѰԼѾõİ⡣
ƶֻһ񣬾̻Ӧһͽƣǹĺǰһסͦǰ⣬˱
"......"Ǹطոջˮһƶ......
ƶͷסͣ˶ոճǻζǣֻǺһתͷȥԸ⿴Լ
ƶּزȻǳɫҺ壬ͷȻҲǿԲ̵ģǵʵطʱ򣬿ƶ㶵صزԻؼԽԽŮ˵ַ󣬶ͻؼЩӲҺеԣֻΪ÷ˣȴû뵽Ϊ̵Ĺϵ
"᲻Ҫ̷ˡ"ƶͦϻˮ⣬ǳɫرɫһҧסǽС⣬˱ƺҪˮȫ
"ڹ˵......ȥ......"˫ȴػסƶͷƶ˱͵زһ泩Уٶһ
ƶ˱ˮ࣬ǳ΢ܿˣͷǣζδתһߡ
ֱ߶ˮвɿԼú׵⣬Ƶıᣬеı޵޳ָĴڲ࣬΢еĲλ̲ס
"......"ǰ͸Һ壬ȵŤ壬ճһĿƶҲޱȡ
ָΪȷȽʪʼŪڱڱָϸذҵתйɵһſ˵С첻ϵҧƶָ
ƶ̱òûȵó׼˳ָӱ̧ȣǰһͦͽԼ䶯СѨ
""һǺܿڲ̰˵֮ϣѹեľ......
40

ƶ΢Цƣ˯ȥķ˿ͻȻһ̴ӴͿվһߴӰӡ
"Ϲʲ£"ƶ춰ĳֲ⣬ֻ
"ү......Ҹ˵......"Ϸ΢죬ʵˣһֱǵĽдεҲҲǣҪΪ̫Ҫ治˼ǣ
Ľؿƶһ¶ӣүҲүһûм̳ȨǸжã漴Լһ䣬Լʵ̫˽ˣ˵үСǱΪ̳ģԼܳΪүİʯ
"ʲ£㻳ˣ"ƶ࣬ϹӰҲ°ɡ 
"֪ȷһ¡"Щ˼˵Ȼӵүĺӣһ˻ܾùֵֹģݣǰһֱθڲöҺ̰˯һһΪԼܻжҴȵ˶治֪Լǻ˻Ƿˡ
ƶͷڰǰðʵȥ顣飬ȷʵǻˣѾ16ˡ
ȻһֱڻԼǲǻˣƶ׿ڸѾһĸµĺʱͱüүĺˣһүͬĺӣԭΪԼϹĽǹ¶ȴܺǵĺһΪЩжҪ˵һ֮ıˣ
"үٰܲһæ"Щ˼صͷ鷳үҲܲ˼ʵҲ˭ܰæֲү֡
"ʲæ"ƶܾ࣬ȻϹڣҲܶΣǲ֪жˡ
"ݴȻʱȡ"үһ뵽үģүģߣ뵽ԼĺөҪүĺõģ˽һǮ"زҪѺӵ¸ү......"
"֪ġ"ƶüٹʱĶӾͻԽԽ󣬾ٳٶ۵˶ῴЩΣҪ˵Ϲթˡ
"......֪......"Ц˵ܿҪ뿪ϹˣȻ֪ϹԼϹԼҲҪϹΪԼһС
ƶȵؿ࣬԰˼ѵ뿪Ϲ⣬ϹܷˣϹ֮ʵ飬ְסϹҵѹΪ࣬Բð뿪ģ"Ϲⲻ˵ģ㻹ĺ......"
"ү֪......ү......ûбֻҪ......"ధϹ֪ӵĴƱҪһˣʵⳡ˹үܵһ˺
"ðɣ֪ˣǮ"ƶе󣬵ͷܹౣ˵ģҲԸܵһ˺
"......ˡ"Ҫϻȥǣүͱòðˣߣһ飬Ǹүһ൱Ҫˣ"ϹѾ֪ɹˣ׼Ӧýھͻ֡"
ոյϢȻүҲпǲ֪ΪʲͱϹĳϻЩ⣬ϣүİ˲˶
ƶüͷϹ֪ͺץ߻չ˿쵰ǺԼĸ׻𣿻ҪȺĺӣ
41

˯һ룬Ϊʹѹ۾һͼֱסԼˣû뵽Ȼ˸գ͵۾ƶأ
ԼΧֻһˣվַŰƶǳȥˣֻˣƶȥȥʵ˰ɣ뵽Ǹʵˣʵڲ֪Լÿ޻ǸЦˣỹоȥʵ飬ǰ滹Լΰ......
ƣԼȻƶⷣ꺢ᣬԼúúöˣϰûпƶ¥ѿƶ˯ߵʵҵſڣһ˵ᵽ˺ӣȻ""һ£ʣ˾˭ҿƶʲ᣿ƶûʲѣͻȻİңΪʲҪᵽӣ
ƴԼ侲Сض˰ڿǸ˵ĳᣬ̲סüͷ˸ģüеܳĵ̣ϻһīȥʲˣƶʲʱʶһˣ
ҿ̫Լ֣ǵĶԻԼԼ֮Ǹɷ˶Կƶ˵"ֻҪ......"Ȼһ£ʲֻҪӣʲ˼ҪԼĺӣܵػסԼĶӣŵصȴƶػƶӦòԼĺӸ˵İɣ
˲򵽹ȵ׵ǣƶ˵"Ǯ"һ˲׵һ񴥵һضƶѺɷˣֻһԼǰ߽⣬һһƿκζеĶŤ
Լ֮ƺ"Ϲ"̲סҪЦЦԼͷŴ׳գ֪ԼסҪǰһٵͷ֪Լ߻ҵ......
ƶʱͿڴرϣƶǰסҪԼԼİ˺ͺӣҲϹ⣬ϹԲԵ޹ʵذһˣðȥ𣿲УѾӦˣԲ£𣿲УϾҪˣҪúñܵκ˺
ƶһ̲סȫزһƬңȫ֪Լ죬ֻһǳᶨӣ
ãһƿƶǿȵԼ侲ǧ𷢻Ϊ˺ӣǧҪ侲Ϊ˺ӣǧͼһԼɳƵʿƶ"ոȥˣ"
ƶϵıʱס˵"ûʲᣬȥһѡ"
ѣѣѣ
ĿƶƭԼİѺӸˣƭԼ˵ϹûʲЭ飬һжǻԣһжƭ֣ƭԼƭһͿԼȴɵһΪ˴˵Ľ㣡̫ɵ̫׳ˣŻһֱƶڹһﳰЦԼΣЦԼȻһٶûԵĻ쵰
"ȥ䣿Ҫ"سЦ
ƶһסû뵽ᷴԼѣһʱ֮䲻֪˵ֲϣԼϹҵǷǷĶӣ̾ϢԼĴΪԼúͱҸһ......
Բû֣ңҲᱣͺӵģ
ƶ˵ԼеʹͲѹĵףȴǵ˵"Ŷûʲᣬȥѣ˯ɡ"
͸ҹ΢Ĺֱƶտ۾Щ˸ƺĳЩܣƾЦԼڴʲ᣿ڴʲᣡ"˯......"
˯ɣȵ죡ʹ뿪ƶ죡
42

ڶϣƶһһˣһԱ߻˯һĶͷ׼Ȼȥˡ
һҹû˯ƶȥʱģЩӵظƶǣΪʲԼ˯ỹҪֳ᣿ƶﵽģ
ССǲûиıȥľģƶǰŸߣˣ򵥵ʰһԼĶԥһ£˼ƶΪ·ʹæˡ
һţ;úãȻ֪ȥͦһӣȥԭǸԢ𣿲У϶ᱻƶҵģһߣʵǰƶҲԶĵطҲһӿƶ߹ȥҲͰСʱ·̣׮Լûκ֪ĴڣƶҲ֪ԼʲħŻⴱڿһ֮١
һӣСԼĶӱ˿Ѿ·ݣȵֻܴһT޷סӣֻС·
ֵҵǡһ·ϲûжˣƺûʲ˿˳صԼı豸һжȫģǶһЩҳһ£׼ʼɨ
ͦһµĶӴɨ˵һ൱飬ǿǿŰѴɨã;öӿʼԾʼǿҵʹо̥쳣ƵЩľԼĶӣﴫһĲѵҪˣԤڻڣӦ͵ģȫû׼
ȻĶȫĿƵطӲþһˮһֻԼ౻ײһ£һ˲ʧȥվ˵ϡ
ץסؿڵ·ڴڵشصһһػָؿԼʹҲܿڻζĶө̥ʼڻ׼ΪԼĳ׼ԼҪˣʶܲ
"......"޴ҪпƶͻȻ뵽ԼֻһˣģǸ쵰ʲᣡûʲ˵ģֻҪʹͺˣҲרҵʿͲԼȿƶǸûûεĻ쵰ҪͲûпƶǸ쵰Լߣûа취ӣ
ŬվԼʹʱ׼һЩǵһЩˮֳȥòߵңֻһŲȽȥŨŨĻңתͷͲǽڻص
ߵһ룬͸оʲճҺĳϡĸоȫʶƵʳ⣬ŪʪĿөˮƺˣ
ȫû뵽ˮˣǹճܲŬԼ򶨵ػصԼɨܵĻѡһԱȽϺõĵطӭӺӵĵɳڵ̺ϩʽȽ춺ӳ
ѵԼĿӣǿָܸ߳ԼѨĴ򿪳̶ȣȻˮѾˣֻ΢΢ؿ뺢ӵĳкңԶһʱ䣬볢ĵصȴʹеȴ
ʱһƹȥʱһһŷԭļ尾򵥵ܾͿԹȥģҵʹԶеҪ˺ѷΣ
43

ƶһػصϵûж˿ʱ䣬ʱӦóԺ緹ɳϿֽԼģ˵˯̫ˣԵҲû
ƶ΢΢Цһ£ҲԣеӦö˯ǣû̫ؿʼ׼ͣ漴뵽ӲãӦԹ緹˯ǾͷеĻͳȥȻҵţӭı˾Ŀ
أĻȻѸ򴲱ߣһ´ϵ¶ǱģҲ˵һʱˣȥˣѵǱϹҵ˴ˣ
̷Լ뷨ûĺۼҵʮֵĸɾİĺۼҲֻǵȥɢˣοԼǺַܿ뷨ܻðñ˿ԼĴӵģҲԺ߶ȥˣ˵˰ˣ
ƶͼԼ侲ͿʼܣƷȫʰˣ·Ҳ˩Լߵģƶʶһ㣬ΪʲҪ뿪أ⼸ദʮǢͻȻ뿪أ˵⼸¸ΪԼģԼٶн䱸ͳûܣһܵȥأģ
ƶԼԴǰδеҳһţֱ͸ȫ֪Լźã޷ȥһ˲䣬ϣǱ˴߶뿪Լģȥ֪ԼҪ𣿾......Ҫѡ뿪ԼҲҪȰѺһӣú˭չǸ׳վһ㶼û뵽𣿣
УȥѰҪϽһȻ˵Ԥڻڣǲںܻܿǰʵڲһ˹¿ӵӣ˵Ͻҵ
ƶ뵽ԭĹԢȥȥĺۼûУֻȥʲطأϲϼңܣǸӣܻȥȥǸŮˣ
ģȥһ㼴ʶûеģԼôҲҪȵӳһ뵽ΪԼ뿪ƶ;ԼıͿһ䣬㲻ң㲻ٸҸļ֮ٲ̵ذԨ
ûа취ܣҲȥܣ
ңǰҵģһжֻڿЦ
ڼɳϣһߺţһЦ˵ոֻǺԼһЦ
Ļ룬ڵһʱ俪ؼңʧǣӭֻĮĻֱؿֻûͷӬһڴСĴεϣԼķ֣Ȼʱתʲᶼûзʲᶼûҵ
֮£ѡ˸Ϲ绰ӭϹƣ"Ϲ諶һˣȻں˵ʧˣԼʧٵģ"
"......ҺܱǸ......"ƶͷһεذϹ⣬"㣬......ҵ............"
ϹĬȻҪƶԼ˵ĻжѣǼͶ·ҲԲԼڵԼγǺͿƶһ״ܰҵ࣬Ҳѡӵİѵõ̾һԿƶ˵"һҵģϢһ֪ͨġ"
44

湻ʹģʹֱҪõˣ
عסԼ߸¡ĶӣëĺϻγˮӲϻȻڵ̺ϣʵĵ̺ϲҪʱ㱻͸ȫʪ󡣶ɵ·ҲΪˮճʪȫȻϣճ΢΢ͻز;޴Ķӡ
 "ƶĻûԵѪ"ʼϵϣԴתԼϵʹȻ֪ܲǣֻԼ̲סڵҪ˻ðѵֱӰǸ쵰ˣ
Ǹڹ˵᲻ȥһʹðһϴľʹŪջȻûȫʽ䣬̵һ̵ĻڣֻǵʹСѨҲŸոտ2֣Բ߱еǻ죬ҲȱʹĴƼأܵʹԶҪŮǿҵö࣡
ʹҪҪǸĻڴΪʧƷе......üǲ֪Ǹɷļⷻ᲻ݺݵؽѵƶһ٣ƶѪӣԼֺûйǸ
̫ûˣǸúӡԼǵʵƷƷѣҪǸԼϹұƵͶ·Ҳˣ᲻⣬ڣԼ˶ԷһʵǮ
ƶ㵽ûһԣûһѽ
ǿʹɬԼͿƶ֮ĵεΣԼʼ䵭ģԼΪڶĸǷ˶ٵ˼Լڼƶȴһ̬ضԼΪԼĿ˽ˣû뵽һжƭ֣ȫǸƭ֣
ֵҵԼٻûжԿƶףһᱻƶǼⷵһЦЦ......ӣûбʲԼǱ䣬ó׵......
ڲϮһǿǰľʹ޷Լſڵϣ壬Ѿʧȥ˶ʹģ޷ˣˣ
ƶ......ƶ......
סغǸְֺ޵˵֣ܾһԴ͸Լ֧ԼɷҲԸȥܵʹ
˭˭ǿƶ𣿣
֮УһζӰӣεʹ̧ͷߣֻȾʧǣ˲ǿƶȴһ벻ˣ磿
"......"ʹ޷˵ֻһûصͷסԼ޴Ķӣ̥ԼСĸǻչ֫ƿࡣ
ŵص°ȫûڵϰŵʪ͸ҪжǱжǱ⻹ʶǸһ㻵Цȴ˵Լ۾
ڶʲˣſƾһֻһ¶°һЩƵĶĵճҺβȼ˵䣬ǸŻиһĴӣˣԼΪ֯ҪԶ߸߷ɣӣǸ
ԼֱҪˣ
ӵ֯ɸ;ùŹ֩ʲỳеˣȵõϵʱȫ޷Լ۾һǻеԭΪ֪֯˶Ķ̽Լֱ֮ǰһֱƭԼһһؿʱֻǸԼǸ۵ɵӣ
ԼΪ˲ҪðΣձ֯˴˿ȴŮһظһӣ᲻ȥˣˣ
ŭǰһץˮʪͷ޵ؿԼʹ飬ҧгݵ˵"ӻ𣿣ᰮǸǻ"
45

ǿԼѱʹĥЩʶˣЦԼȷʵˣˣʱԼ跸ƶǸ뵰ĳ֣
΢ĿЦȴΪЦڳЦԼЦԼȻһˣЦŮһΪһӵʱԼȴӵһѰ˲ͨ죬˿̷ŭҪɱ壬ͷѥκαĶϣʹذ"Ҫ"
ܵػסԼĶӣĶ춴˵ǻϽͣ޺޵˵"ܵӻʲõģں𣿺ܺãҾͰִϳ"
˵ʹԼĶѥڳһذҫ۵֮ذ׷ĵĺ⣬ɼľص磬˵ģ
ڵӸǴ춶·״̬ʲᶼ˼һĩǾǴҪĺӲ
վֻǲûֶ֧þɳϣ"ة"Ѩƺܲʱؿٴˣʹȵ󿪵Ѩڻصضִѹ໥ĵҪŻ£̲סһ߸Ż
"Ҷģ"ѾŭɶˣŭʧȥеǣݺݵץͷͷƤǿܣץס֣ƿ֣ǸģĸǱһʹؽסҲʹŤס
յ׺ͼ˦֣ˣ޷˦òһֻֿסĻڣɿʹԼ󣬸ΪԼ޲ھذʿĶӣǸҰйޣ
˫ģؿ磬Ǵ۵ذľҪʲ᣿ڵûȥָȥܸоԼѨѾòˣ̥һһ׹ѹθθҺϵѹֿɬ
"ة"죬˭Ⱦͺ......ƶ......
ʹһŵǵûͬģŭԼϲ˱ӣ۱üΪɭȻʹ࣬Ѱɣ
һؿĽʹԽԽңѾûа취վпֻŵزϵؽһ˵֣ƶ......Ⱦ......
ۼذ׾Ҫ£߳һţĿȥмɵرܿˣԿܹרҵѵģ򵥵Ҳܿʶһ㣬رסԼĶӣ֪ܸûãʶϣܱӣ
"ཀྵ"ڴĵҪµǣĳͨѶ豸ֶ˰УʲԸذһ¶ϵĶ"ιʮߡ"
"ǺǣʮߣҪסϴҪģƽº͵ܲҪͺһصĻǺǣ֪......"
üһ£ǿֱӰĳ嶯סŭشһ"֪"ģԼˣȻɱҰ֣û֯ǰЩж֯ˣ̲סһս
תۿ϶ƺһǰǿз˹˫ѹĸļУ""
֫Ŭ֣ѹƵĸоҪĶӼһ "..................ʲ......"
ǿԼȥǸˣֻҪ࿴һۣԼ̲סҪɱ"㲻Ұ̥еĻʧȥ֮ǰѺ"˵ҪѺȻǻܲܰϵ̫ˣΪ˶Լֵã
46

˼ʲᣬѾڶȰѺ̥ڲϢ
ʹ˵ϱ˺üܵʹԶʤһеŮˣοǱ߱һܵΪӳĲҪܵʹȻҪǿһŮԷ䡣
ֻԼµļȫе̥ѪѾ˼£ʱпܻᱬβĿԽԽ٣ԴһƬհףѹ˲ôڳƾܵذڵϣֱͦ壬춺ӵ׹
"ة"߾ȫؼԼĶӣϸһһظɱȥ¸ӹ𣬶Ƥ֮ϿԵؿӵ
Ŀɿڴһ߿ƵѾصŤ˵սľǴˮ̳һˮֱµĵ̺Ҳˮһ⣬ΪµǣϵԿѨڱŴԿڲɫ⣬ԼԼ֮лһʪĺӵţ̲ס֭Ϸ죡һӵɱҲҪӣ
ڸûʲƺĸֻѶ̥Ū͵ͨ죬ס˾е˸ӵͷתڷһȴظܵתСС֫ƺҪſڴڲͣشһ˲ΪԼѾˡ
ҧסԼĴԼгҲΪԼй֣ҪסѾڳˣܿ......ܿҪˣŬûģ
ϵҹ͵һӣ춣ѨһɲǱ˺һ㣬ΪԼһȥ
"۩"һĿӵĳһйƤȥǷϵڵϣ̥Լ
翴˺ܾãʵ˵ҪǿӴڳ˿ӻһ޷һһӣ
ͻأһ޴죬æȥһһֱɻȻ֯ˣѵ˵֯ͷβڻԼȻľĶͷ˾ɲʲûɫܻɵˣһֱûųܾܿĳԵ޹ʵʧˣ
"ˣ"̽ԵֱɻˣǴú⣬ǵµĽŲȴ¶ǾԵز򵥡
"ʮߣĶ̫ˣϴȲˡ"пȥȽº͵΢Ц˵Цȴôĵ׵ر˿ȥ޺ʵ֯еڶļⷣԱǸһĬļеһϴȻ˶ɳˣģֻϴΪʲأ
"ûа취ŸոհѺ......"æһԷ۾Ͳ˵ȥ
죬ˣæϺӵҵùһߵĿӣ˲ԼشϿӡŸմϿӣͿߴһ߽Ȼ˱ϿȥûʲᣬóֲѰˣ
ȫ޷˼Լ൱ʹ壬̱ʽرӣˣǾԲʲˣ
47

ǸȥȽº͵ϻԴһԾʮǱĺӣ˵ʵͦţ˾Ȼºˣϴ˸Ȥѵ˵ϴҲԼһ......⵹пܣϴҲûŮ˸ûкӣ
"ã"˶΢΢һЦ"ԽҰģϴȥһΡ"
"ܾܾ"ڵľ棬ԼӸӲˣЩҲ֪ЩҪԼʲ......ѵ˵ҪԼͺӵչʾƷһ뵽ͻҵز
"ܣ㲻ú£ϴûʲ⡣"Ц˵ֻ֪ϴûж⣬ʵҲǺϴ󵽵ʲ˼ʾһĮⷰ飬"ղķʿҪǰһѡ"
ߴ˼Ļﻹûа취ڸûֻ˽Լֱɻ֪Ҫȥ
ǶԺӲرסӣҪԼĺʵĻɴȥҲǵóѣ
ճĺӻû۾ֻͨͨСҲûüϰʲͱ˴˷ɻϣϵؿزе֪룬򱻳÷꣬ǸĬ˿ڶ˵"㲻죬Ҿʹ"
֪˵ģǺʲ취Ӥϵĥزز͵ܣĥҺͷȻ뵽ʲһԼոճĶөҪ̰ɣ뵽ǰƶԼ̵ĳʱ˵һ"Ҫ̷"Ļ......ԣˮҲܵ˵ι̣У
̧ͷˣǸڼʻɻ˶ڵԼ֪ǸȥȿƶҪ˵ģ˵ƶֻǱ˾ᣬ֪ԼĶӸɳʲ̵
εصͷֵԽԽĶӣССɤſ޵öЩɳˣۣݺݵر۾ԼTӵСԼͷ̱ܵҧȥȻСӻûݣǻЩʹ
üĵӤһҵʳѸٵ˱ͷϵˮˮ൱ĳ棬ӤҪܳԵԵúܿģֻСѹزȻûжǻȵز۾ֻӤ˱͵ز漣泩˺ܶ࣬һû˱ͷȻվƺڿ˱һթֱȥɱ˿ƶǸʼٸԼǰ⿴Լȵ״̬ˣȴ޿κΣԥһ£ûסؽӵһߵͷһҲͨ
ǼֱǿĿɿڴȫû뵽һ˲˺ˮǸҲֳĳΣֻǾеķʵ̫̬ˣ
һܴׯ԰ׯ԰ٲȻԳһسΪһССׯ԰ڲҪС͵Ľͨߣó˵Ĳƴ֣ĵһӦϹ壡ѵ˵ƶҲԼֱϹҲпܵģһ뵽Щ;Լֿʼʹʹͬʱʹһȴֹļ尾ȫ򲻻ֹͣ
һ鷿ᣬЩ˾͹ϷŵԶ뿪ˣ鷿شԱվһ޳ˣϦòǺֻһͷɫĳǸ˻ػعͷſһǻѪһ˫ҹڵ˫˵˵أǴһ˿аЦʹ˸ս
˴ãسȥ̲ѹȸУϵѹȩ˵߲ûв٣ϵġ
һѾԱ˶ؽӤð˵һ仰"ѿϹɵĻ򶼺ܲ"
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ȻԼĺӣǽΰѧııῴɰ۾ʺס˸ԼѹȸУ˵"ҵĶĺӣ"ֻϹ˭"˭Ϲɣ"
΢΢һüһǳúͺûʲСӤг˲ͬﺢʵڿʲ㣬ԼǸ˵ĺө϶ǿɰ˼˰ɣֻϹɵĺӶˣȻ֪ϹɣϹûиϹҵ£޹ء"Ϲûи˵Ϲҵ£Ҳù֮£ֻҪӵļѣΪϹɲϰѼҲúͳϻǰͷ򽻵ˡ"
ȫǰ˵ʲᣬֻ˵ϹɲָƶɣƶϹҵˣǿƶᵽϹҵ......"˵Ϲָƶ"
"ǣ˵ֶӡ"ǸҲϹ˵ò᲻صģʵڿνֶʲ飬"㻳ҲֶˣֻҪϹɰѼҲȥо˵ϲʣ"
"ҪҿƶҪȥҡ"֪Ϲ˵ģƶѼ϶Լͺӽʵо˫ۣڵغԼĺӡ
"ҪϹϽҲˣϹҲǵģгûϢĴʲϵҪϹҵ˶ǳ......ǺϹĹϵ"Ϲ諿ȷʵûʲȤΪϹɣ˵ϹɺҲһͬҪֻԼӵļ"ɣ˵Ҳģ۸СģҸ·ҪпƶѼҪñ˴ϰѼо"
"ƶϰѼǣ"ƶûѼϹңһ£ǸĿһ£ѵ˵ʼնԼ˿ƶȻˢԼƶˣԼߵΪ޴ˣ˵ĺӡǮϹֵ£
"Ƕһʡ"Ϲ諲ͷ˵"ûУ"
"Ҫƶ"˵һЩ¸
Ϲüëⷻ춱ҪǸֶϺȴѡ˺ϹǸСϹǼʲõģҪϹǰͷ̫ǵѡǺԼ
"ܺá"Ϲصͷ绰ƺǴԼ£˵"ҰϹ......ʲ᣿"
Ǹ΢΢̧"ʲ"ᣬƤҵһ£ȻͻȻһֺܲõԤУ
ȻϹ諷µ绰ɫЩѿؿԼ˵"ûѡϹɳ˳ҽԺԲѣ"
ʲ᣿ֻƺһӱһ⣬˫ҪץסʲƴʹֱĺΪĹʹÿžѹæӡ
"ˣǴȥ"Ϲ諰һťȻһߵĻͲ˵һ䣬ܿؾ߽ӣͼȥ
һ£ֿϹ諲͵飬ͻȻ侲򶨵˵"ȵȣҲΪµĿԱܱȿƶҸ"
ĻϹ諵Ȥһƣʾȵȵȡ˵"ʵҺͿƶӻֲԵɹ˰ʱ䣬ȻЯһ򣬵Ǿȡһÿ˵ĻǲһģҪȫϿ»ҪϺüʱ......"
"˵ص㡣"Ϲ諴ĻûȤЩ⣬ֻ֪ԼʲʱǸ˵ĺӡ
"˵ȥоҪõɹҲҪߡʱ䣬ãȿƶ"
Ϲ˼һ£˵ûдҲûʱȥȴֻ......"˭֪Ϲʲʱ㲻;......"
"ģ"ŭ˵ƶģкܶʵԼͣ......ûԼĶһأԾĪȥ
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һɾ·Ϲ˱ΪʣһȥҽԺȥƶ
ҹҽԺȺܾЩˣʵ˲䣬ֻǽȴܣȵҹȴһһضƶ㲻£
˫΢ƿţʵڲԸǸڲ֮ϲһϢ˾ǿƶ۾һŸǰȥֻǼŬ׼һƶǽûһӦֻԼҲˢһеѪҺ˳ƶƽʱأصģ
Ϲ諵˵ǿƶڹʮ·ڵʱ򴳺ƱһٵĴ󳵺ײΨһҵǣԷǴӿƶֱײģ˸Ļƶ㱣סһʵڲʱԷٶٿһߵĳֱװƶǽ
ƶͷĵ˫ȭݺݵڽʵĴϣ˫ͨҲ֪һ񱻷ɳĮһÿ£ҪҪǸĺԼ˵Ŀƶ
"ƶ쵰۾"۾Щʹֻǿ̧ۣͷƶ֣òǻ˵֣ϸϸĦԼ´ȫû֪ˣƶ㵹ǸѹٲС㣡
"֨"һӦ죬һĶ߽ȥʮ꣬ȥ൱ʱǿϵĿƶ޵̾һתۿ
ûע⵽˽ֻĿʼ˿ƶϣǿǿȥĻţڵûб뷨ֻƶѹֻҪѹһж
"......ãղķʿ"˷ȫԼĴڣЩΣһע⡣
ע⵽һˣؿһۿƶ̧ͷˣ˺ϹȴϹ諿ȥҪһЩƽ׽һЩ"ǣ"
"ɵĸ......Ҳǿƶ?ά˶ĸס"΢΢һЦȥʮֵš
ЩԾǵһοƶĸףͿƶʶûпƶĸףû̸ԼļˣڿƶסãҲûзͼ˵һƬͻȻ뵽Ϲ諽пƶΪϹɣҲ˵ƶʵؼһԱΪʲҪ"ã?ղķʿղķʿͿˣϹ"
ϹϸϸشЩ񿴶ϱȣص˵ͷĿܼᶨϳϢʺϿƶǸֻҪܹҸͺãο˻......Ƿ̫̫......
"ʵӦýһְ......"ϹֿϵĿƶ⺢ӳúĸ׼һģһȴûĸϵЦֶ˼ֿɬΪĸ׵⺢ӴʱûнйԼһѹҲԼһְְɣǺӽԼүү......ˣȷʵûʸ񱻽һ"ְ"......"ˣҲͺˡ"
"......Ϳˡ"ҲڴϹţǺϹţƶͻȻֵĸȻȥȽϺͰΪʲ粻ȥʱ֣ǿƶж᲻ԸᵽϹңһʼΪϹڱȿƶڶϵ͸Ϲˣ
"......ȥ̸......"Ϲ˵ƶ˼ۣŵͷվϹ߳
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ԺϢңҽԺҲϹµĲҵϹһûʲҵ͸......
"......ҪҪϢһ£"Ϲողĵƹ̫춻谵ûпῴŷɫѿЩƿȥΪƣȻ뵽ŸոӣּನۣƣҪϢ
һ̫Ѩ˵"û£¾˵ɡ"ȷʵ͸֧״̬ĺϹʣƶִ춻֮У˼ȥϢȥܣ
Ϲſһۣڵ̬ҲȰǽڣ۹Щ²ǿƶԶ޷ԵʹҲԸȥھ㲻ˡ
ĬãϵԽԽˣЩ΢΢ƶżֳĴһֱƺҲܳסֹıϹŲŻؿ˵"ͺӳϹ߰ҵʧҲΪʲһʵԣʵ˵̫̫ҲĸϹڵ峤൱ʵģҪ諵ѹǰһʵʱǾӦñֹͣʵˡ"ĸͳԸܻĿгɹڣҲֻ諲ܸĸʩѹɣϾϹһЩ˵»Ҫȥ......
"ڵ֪ϹΪʲҪʵɹ֪ƶϹҵĹϵ......"֪ƶϹҵĹϵƶʼղԸѿгɹϹңϹҲĳЭĻΪʲҪϹͬʱϹҵǸ˵£Ǹ˵¿ֻʿƶˡ
"ûиЩ"ϹЩԾ漴ҲԣǸӱĬԣܰЩ˵ˣЩðǸ˵˵ԲͬʱְĸǺӴСȱи˰ϣܼӱذֲеˡ
"Ҳǿƶ......ҵ˽ӡ"Ϲε˵γϣ橤ӶԼֻԼ̫ųҷĸף뿪ϹңŻᵼ棬ڵԼ簬˵һһ뿪Ϲ޷˩ĺûã
"......ǿƶĸأҲ˿ƶ"Ϊĸ˿ƶԵ˿ƶԸû̫⣬Щм˽Ӳ֣Ϊ˽ᲢҺϹҲͿ˵ͨˡ
"......ĸ............"ϹŴر۾Ĭãٴο˵"㻹ϢɣѾˣҲڣп˵ɡ"
"ûйϵҵðھ֪춿ƶһ顣"ȻЩ򣬵ֱ¶ԿƶҪ̲ݻҪ֪
Ϲſһۣ˵ͷβż˵ȥ"ҺĸװǴѧʶģǺܿˣԼñҵʱͽ......ֻ̫̫Ǹܱصˣһ˶һûκαƽǼ壬ǵʱѾ......"룬ʱԼʵ̫棬ΪԼ֪˶ˣȸԼֱӺģ
"̫̫ɵĸҪ̥ǰȺܰӣϵͽ̥ܽܶ......˽ֲµĽҵ......"ϹſЦ˵ûе뿪ϹңֲȣյĽǺŮˣ˰Ҳʹĸ"̫̫ɵĳһͱ˹ϹһвƲļ̳ȨЩұȢһŵԵŮˡ"
ĬϹ˵ȥ"Ҳ......ȵʱҪ뿪ģȴԸ⣬ûбǵȴǿǣΪ֪ع......Ҵ......ú......" 
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ѹĵ׵ĻһϹҲֹסѾֲڽͻڣԼ˫ս"ΪԼúܺãʵ̫̫ͼ˶֪꣬һεػ......"ʵҲ°УһֱСرУֻʱԼһȴðһʬ......
"ȿúͬ......û뵽̫̫֪ܿˣҪȶ̥˵ѾһϹѪͳ˲еڶ"
û뵽ϹŵĸִͻȻ뵽ϹƺҲǻѪϹƺϹŵĵܵ......"Ǹһ£ǸܵƺҲǻѪ......"
"˵諣"Ϲ΢΢̾һʵϹҲżϹнĵλȴֵѪȻģ"ͬĸĵܵܣȻҲǻѪ......ǲһ......ϹΨһһ......"ϹҽҪɲܣȻڵЩƧٵڰ
ûмȥϹЩıԿϹ諵ľҪȿƶ⣬"......ƶĸһζ̥ˣ"
"û......"ϹſǽѾǽɫûʲˣ"̫̫һζҪȶ̥Ȳ̥Ҫɱ˰......ɵﺢӵ......"ʱͰĿҪĸױƷˣıԵĸǿ̶пʱĸֻǽⷢӣĿҪɵɱɣǵʱͰȴʱɾѪССѾоǷֵüʱɵԶͣһ̣ףҲĸ׵ӣΪʲĸҪֵز
񾭽İȱ´̼񾭱ˣĸ׻ǲԸʹ˰......Ҳĸ׵ĿľǱƵͶ·޷⩤ʵһĸпضԴԼĶӺӣ"ᰬѡ˴ĺӺһԾ......"
"ɣ˵ƶҲˣ"ϹȵֻǿЦıĸױƷˣҲʧȥĸ׵ĺӻϿʱܵĸ˺
"ǵģȴһ𣬲ΨһֵҵɵʱȽ⣬ȻǾҵļԶҩɵڷ쳣ɱȻˣֻ......ζʱƻ˵ɥʧζ......"Ϲ˵˵һ䣬֤Ͱమĺӻˣ治֪ԼϳΪĸеľż׻ʲ˼
ʱĳȻϹŵܼ򵥣ܲ³ʱƶһߵΣڻҪΣգʹľ綾ĿƶǾССϵس鴤Ȼᱻ̨ܱҩûʱĿƶһʹʹ࣬һҽԺ֢......ѹֿƶһᵽϹҾֺޣֻǸ̫ſϾŹƶһ뵽Ǹ̫ŶԿƶĥͺ޲̳嵽ϹҶݺݵһ٣ǲ͵Ůˣ"Ǹ쵰ſϾʹ˷Źƶ" 
ϹһʼûзӦ˺һ׹"쵰"˵ĸףͻȻЩЦʻõУ"̫̫ŹĩӴҲٿһֻۣܴϹҩһһĿܣͶʵʩߡ"ĸ׻ãԹԵϹܣĸ׵ûȥΪɡ
"ģ̬ùԣǲϹԶصѽ"ɢԼӵļͥŮʮ̬
"............"汻˵ˣϹŶҲЩĸױ̬ԭĸǸĶҵˣʮһֵܽȫǲͬģԼĸϹΨһ⣬ĸȴԼĲתӵͷһԶԭĸ׵ģ
ĬһϹվ˵"Ҳ̫ܶʱ䣬̫̫֪ɵĻɲ......"
"......"ͷ̧ͷϹţͻȻһ䣺"֪Ѿүү˰ɣ"
"......"ϹŲΪʲͻȻð仰ͽ⿪ɻ"ܲ鷳æѺͻҵ......ǺӲŸոճ;ǼȺ̬ڣҪȵƶһǵģҲǲҪٴǵˣ"
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"ţ"ϹſȻ۾Щ˾͵ѾҪ֧ŲסӣȻ˫۾ȴ쳣ļᶨĿʣƺѾʲ
"ϹҲ㾡һүүΰɡ"ĳƺԵת䣬ȻϹűϿҲһܺߣΪһȴܱԼİ˺ͺӣ˸ֵͬ飡ʵϣΪʹÿƶܣ׿ƶϹҵ飬ҲǶϹҺ޵ҧгݣҲϹʲϸ
ϹҲоԼ̬ȱ仯ûָԼܵõʲˡֻϣԼܹҸ......"һŬ˵諵......"
ͷصƶĲֻŸոֻһͷۻǰһƬڣֻ"驤"һԼʲ......
ȵѹѾˣͷԷ͵ѹͿһƬˢˢģ۵˸еܣӭһǺ˵ˮζüͷѹֿƶ᲻ϲҽԺطȷʵʺ˴
"ˣ"һŮתͷԴһλ곤ŮʿȥͦͰġԼ΢΢һЦ˵"̫ƣͶ˯ҹڸо"
"......ҶЩ......"оӺܶڶȫʹ
Ǹʿ΢΢һЦ˵"еӶһ£ȥ׼Եġ"
"......"ͻȻ뵽ʲᣬȻһסȥĻʿʣ"ƶûУ"
"ƶ"ʿЩûӦȻʲᣬ̰ο˵"ȻûѣѾȶˣѾûΣˡ"
"......"Ȼ춿ƶûѹЩʧûΣˣһ"ȥ"
"Ҫӣ㶼ˣ˭չ"ʿЦ˵ĶӦʿĻһ""һУЩ˼
ʿ΢Цȥˣȵٽʱ˲ٳԵģȷʵǶˣƷζͼس˸⣬ԱоԼָòˣҪ´
ʿæֹ˵"廹ҪúϢԺú壬ᾡѺӱģ"
֪ϹⰲŹչԼģԼȻģȻ˯죬ȴʹرоעˮһʹҪһڴһģʵ̫ˣοڻܵĿƶͺӣ"......"
"ǿЩµҲûãӦľǺúϢչҪչ˵ˡ"ʿĳ̵
ȻĻҲ֪Լĵĸʲãһ뵽ӻϹҵЩϹҵ˶ʲûɫ˭֪ԺЩʲһǸʲϹûĵȵƶѹѺӽо죿
ֻоԼı͹һѰظ
ʿ΢΢̾һ˵"ҽ¶ȣҪʲæͽң벻Ҫ"ԺҲˣһԺصչˣȻҲܵˡ
ȵ¶ȳȥȥƶٴοǸһĿƶ̲סгʹϸϸƶݵ۾ЩɬƶֻҪһӱã㲻ҲûйϵֻҪҰ͹ˣһҵİ첹еȱڵģ
"Ȼ"űؿ¶ȿһոҲﻹЩ
̧ͷ¶ȣȻһ¶ȵĻ￴һСӤĺ𣿣
¶˳۹⿴ԼĻ֪ע⵽˺ӣЦ˵"ոԺģ˵ĺӣǣҰѺתǡ"
"ҵĺӣ"վѸٵشܵ¶ȵǰĺƣ⺢ССǷۺۺģ˿¶ȵĻ˱ԼĴָ"ұ"
"СأҸոտǻ˺ôľźסġ"¶ȰѺӽ⺢Ӹոտһ·޹ģԺһ취ûֻðѺӽḻȵϻʿԺƺЩᣬĺʵ˵ͦģԲѵӦԺĶӰɣƺͬˣֻ⺢ӿȥû......˵ģ
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ѹסԼеȣоԼһûпˣסөеָĪظжеỨ鲻ԽطĶӣ
ӵĻ΢΢ſīɫ۾ضͣؿҲǺϰĻ쳣ĹɣֻڲϵؿĥҪʲᶫһ˰컹ûҵͱЩССĻŤЩ֪롣
¶ϵؿӤҪЦ˵"⺢ˣˣӵأ"Ҳܺ溢ӵ˭ء
"Ŷ......ѽ............"һ˿Ϊ֪ľȣܲ˵ӵĸԼ˰ɣزӲЩӲȴܵ¶ȵι̣ͷԼ˵"ܲܽչ˺ӣͿƶסһ䲡"
"õġ"¶ˬشӦˣҲչ˿ƶԺ˵ʲҪ
¶ǸжɵŮԣȻӦ̰ڿƶĲ˴λְﺢ̷ۡƿ·򲼵ȵһϵеӤƷ
˵ʵˣҪԼĶιϴԸģһʼҲ͸ιι̷ۣ⺢ȴǵúܣ˺üӵ̷ۣһ̷۾̣Ū¶ȶûޣ¶˵Ҫĸ顣
С˺ôһȦʹҲز͵ԼǵܶǶܣС
ϵʱ¶Ȳڵʱ򣬰ŵˣÿĺӣһҧ·ͽӶԼһֱΪ̶ͦͷһͷĮＢʺܾõҵˮԴһƻس
ڻеʱչ˵úܺãˮʮֵŨӤʮ̰ţΪȵ̫ǺÿҪȱϢһٺȣȴҧסͷɿڣǶˡ
ӽסԼͷţǱ˱ᣬز˺ܶࡣֻϾȻˮٵȫûŮ㣬ܿͱûˣǺݺݵ˼ڣȻʲᣬ᲻ɿͷ
ҲԼߵˮѾûˣӵı˵"ԣһߵģɿںòã"
СƺĻԹԵ˿ڣȵһߵͷʱȥڴڵغȵߵˮ˸ɿڣ˸ıã۾Сһһȵģûþ˯ˡ
˫鱻ˮЩ΢΢ƽ̹ȥҲٷͣеȫ泩˯ݣȻʧЦ⺢Ǻÿɰ̧ͷϵĿƶʱƶ㵽ʲʱŻ
һһعȥˣԶӵչԽԽӦ֣ι̻ЩŤŤģֻһ죬Ѿ·ˣԴӳˮ֮Ϳʼһ´ͱְֵģŪ¶ʮֵغ棬һֱιģֻǸЦѵ˵Լˮιòɣ
ԭΪжΪչһһСһ˲٣ԭɿĶƤҲýʵֵ͵Ҳ
һƶȻ۾Ѿõòˣֽʱᶯ£ɫҲúÿЩοǲ۾ȴֱֽ
һϣιӣְѺӺ˯ؿѾòӵĿƶҽ˵ƶʵѾõòˣֻԼԸѹѣڶʲ飬ҽĻͱüΪˬչ˺ӣƶ˾͸Ͽѹӱʲᣡߣ𣿾Ȼڴϸװĸ鷳
"ƶ㵽Ѳѹ"ͺ̲סһȭصش˿ƶĲูƶԵطһ˿΢۵˵ƶڻ״̬
"............"ȵȣƺһ΢ڽԼ֣ԼĻþ
"............"ƶ۾ǰЩģǸζӰƺ̼صɴ۾ֻ֣ĺͷɬԷ˺üβŰؽг
"ƶƶˣ"۾һ˲ģ˵ڿƶؿڣлϵۣƶˣ
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".................."ƶоԼЩӲ̫ɬЩѣ̵һˮ̧ͷСι£"ƶо"
"......"ЩˮƶоˣһܵĻȻ۾˳ϵѪɫһӶʧˣҪȥһŸϽѹס"ƶʲᣡ"
ƶ۾ûнص컨壬ɪɪطҲ鲻Խرסƶƶ̲סԼȥϵĦƶ壬ͼȥů塣
"......Ҫ뿪ң"ƶܵǹ̵壬һѺݺݵرסҪԼڻһ
"Ҳ뿪ģƶƶңҲ뿪......"ͣϸƶƶػӦԴͷȡ¶ȡ
΢ƿƶƶѾȶɵһϣͷ˵"ƶú£һһֱġ"
"............뿪......֪ҲãûĻһȥҵĴ뿪ң㣬ˣ˵ʲҶ......"ƶᱧ˵ĵ׵Ŀ־壬һĺӣͷ˵"Ҳ뿪ģƶһӶ뿪......ңƶҲǰ......"
"......㲻֪......ұ......һֱ￴ң......̰......"ǿƶҽԺĸԭֻҪһҽԺ͸оĸվؿԼʱĸ˵õһģ޳ܵϣĸ׺
"ƶ費㣬ܰ㣬һȥֻûչ㣬ңһλ裬ڻúúõģֻˣ......"ϵذοڿȥӵĿƶʹطĿƶһֱĥΪЩʹһֱԼڱһ˶ڰӰﲻҽӴ⣬ӲذԼůȨҳͷֻΪԼʵʹʹֻúõذ
"......"ƶؿֻԼĻþ費𣿷СʱԼϹҵǸһųӵ˶ģ
 "......"ƶӵ۾Ĺоȥֻ޹С̲ס˵ϣǼԱǼ⣬ڵϢڿƶϣĿԣƶ˫̵˽ȥ
ãһ˵"ƶһ㶼......Ұ㡣"
ƶ͵صɴ۾һתѹԼ£ԼĶ䣬ϲض"˵ʲ᣿˵һΣ"
"Ұ㣡ƶ"΢ЦƶƶϲܲΪƶԼİ
""ƶжĥ"Ұ"˶ˣʮĵȴУҲûгһܹ˵ԼֻԼżĻ룬ˣòʵϵϸƶظؽл֣"˵һΣ"
"Ұ㣬Ұ㣬ƶ"ϵЦԽԽã漴Сڴؿƶ"ǿƶأ㰮"
"Ҳ......"ƶˢС˵һȫûƽʱǹӿᾢЩԵؿϵĺΣֻ˵̫Щˬ"˵㻹ǲˣ"
ƶ޹ؿͻȻЦ˳"ǲˣ㻹"
ûϵƶͻȻ˵ٺƤһ뵽ĳЩ£Ҳ΢죬߳ŭضԿƶ˵"ٸҵ˵㵽װңҪǲң̴ȥ椣"˵ҪӴ
"ߣ......"ƶ̼סһͷһ˿ȻûдˣΪ̫õԵڻļⶼʹ
ϽĵΪ飬ʣ""
"û£ˣأ"ƶĶӣѾƽ̹ȥˡ
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"˯"ϵıô˵ӣгΪ˸Ľ
ƶ˳Ŀ⿴˯СϵĺӣӦ͵ӤģֻҪιֲñֺ֪˯Լķ¶Ⱦһεذ˳ŪһСŵǵĲ
ƶЩ˯ĺӣְֿɰĺӣĪĸжӣĺӣ"⺢ÿ㣡"ƶԺ˵
"ǣҵЩ㡣"Ҳ˷ܵ˵춺йͬĽ
ƶ뱧ӣں˯°ѺӸˣС˵"С......"
"Ѿ˺ܶˣ㶼֪ʱǸС㣡"˵漴Թؿƶ"쵰̫ˣһһ£֪֪ҽԺǺģ"ÿ춼ĵԼι̱˿
"Ѿһˣ"ƶЩԾΪʱӵϹĵ绰˵֪ˣһûעʹ˺ƣȻͺһײֻԼججشһƬ֮,ĺڰµЩԸ뿪һ뿪ǸڵĺڰһƬ֮ʱоܵȻ̾ϲ۾Ȼ
"Բ......"ƶǸؿΪĹϵҪһ˹¶ºӻҪӣصʱһԵʤԼʱΪʲҪ뿪Լأƶһ뵽ʱ龰µؽס"뿪ң㶼֪ҵʱж຦£"
"˵......"ԼһĻݺݵ߬סƶڣŭʣ"˵ϵ£ҽǸɷ˵ʲẢӡǮϹʲģ"
"ˣӣǮϹң"ƶЩתƴ˵ĸ
"ҳߵǰһϣҵʱȥˣȴʲᶼ˵"ؿ
ƶһ˵״ȻЩزҿǹҪģ˵ıҪȻϹҵϣ"Ǹǰֻ࣬һѣ˵ĺԼĺӣȻһǮϹ......ĲϹҵҪԼ㣡"ƶ̾˵
"ѾϹҵˣƶǸϹѾˣǸԳΪ㸸׵Ҳҹˡ"һΪƶҪԼĶжһΪƶȻʲ鶼ԼգûаԼ¿
"ûĸף"ƶ̱÷ŭǸʲʸԳĸף͵ܻܵϹϹĸףʵҲǸ˵ܺߣǺһģǸαƵ˺ǸŰĸµܺߣ
"֪ҲΪĸףǿƶʲ鶼ңûаҵ˿" ܲصͺҲǸ˽ųʸ񱻳Ϊƶĸףǿƶʲᶼһֱ״̬֮⣡ 
ƶرס˵"Բ......Բ......ҲЩҺܺ©Լʧȥ㣬ûĲ֪һʲ壬᲻ˣʲ¶ˣ"
"ˣһжȥˣҲ뿪ġ"סƶֿʼ壬Լʼġ
"............"ƶϵػ֣ʵظԼ¶ȡ
ȵЩƽ۾ֱЩؿѩ׵ǽܾúܣϲҽԺ費ԼǲϲطܻǱ֮ϱײڸ龰"ǿ뿪òã"
"ڣ"ù˿ֱߣ賿ʮ뿪ҽԺ
"ҵĸо̫ѹˣ"ƶ۾Ը⿴ǰããһƬ
ЩϰϾҪϰ򵥵ģֻʱ뿪"ڻ뿪......"
"......"ͻȻסƶͣЦһ˲һƿƶϰĺ⣬"֪ļ䲻ãǾõļɣ"
ƶؿǺܿ;ΪѵԼ·¶ǾҲȥ·
"......"ƶɫؿǹͭɫȫѪڣ
"......ʱ˵"סƶͣ벪ĥڿƶϡ
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̽ƶĿ£סƶԣСŪƶ޴ԣԼвϵ׳
ƶγǿҵĶԱȣҪƶԼһȼթȼյΪһ壡ڿƶĿ䣬ԥغסƶ˶󣬲ÿƶһ⻹һΪԼڽʮֵܣ˫ְͷϣԼԶ
ƶԵĺͷܲŬƶԣоǰ˲ϵطҺ壬ĺͷ
"......"ѿƶԸ³Щĵذٴκסƶԣƶת壬ͬʱҲסԣս
ƶⶺŪµľͷһһƣҧĻеļµĳӡ̲ס³ƶԣֹסԼӿݳ
ƶ˫ְǿΰ꣬ڹȼضѨǿͬҪĻ䣬ƶĽ룬ƶǿϽĳ嶯ͷѨΧƤȻһһ꣬ƻೢ̽ڲĸ£ӭͷǶѨӿĴĽҺ
ͷ̽޷ƶתָ΢ָ붴Ѩ֮ڣǸµ̺ڵĳ־ҵҧƶָڲʪָ⴫ݵĴȫѪҺȥȫȻط
Ҫ̽룡Ȼ꺢ûжãСѨǰȴǡôĽϣڲĵƺøã֭ˮøÿƶϽ룡
޷ܵسָĴȾҪ룬ֻû뵽ȴһƿؿһЦ
ѿƶѹڴϣƶϣ޴и׼ԼСѨһȥ......
"......""......"
ȥɱһ˿ʹһҧһȥһ˲ΪԼĶҪ͸ˣ
ƶֱֵҪûйչһǣ˶ȫҲݲһ˿Ǵڣȫǣ壬ӴԲϵĶסĵߡ
""ƶֱҪȥһûҪζˣŬԼĺʼڿƶȵĦͽǽ߬סƶѵԴ
".................."Ŀֹסĺ쳱ƶ§ԼϲסĽʵʶظΪļнڵ˶ᣬԼҲͦ׷ĿС
"......ƶ............"ΥĿƶͦͻأƶĶ䣬԰ε࣬ӾҺͿ٣Եǰ˲ϵķڳ͸ҺϵŤʵƨɽļסƶļͦζĺҺϵشڷڳմȾɫͬŮ˵ڻ谵ĵƹĴ£Խÿƶ԰ΣԵؿΪԼϵϳŤˮ˱棬⣬Ƕ壡һӶҪ
ƶ͵壬嶼Լϣرסһתѹ£ĿǰزźԲԵغȥ
û뵽ƶͻȻסԼ⣬"Ҫ......"
Ǽ䣬ƶһӳˮЩ㶣һǰȻҲһˮȴ㣬ֻһڡ
"쵰......ɿ............"Ӻһµͷ쳣УƶûѰҪƿƶͷǿƶȴ𾢣ڳ̵ʱɿͷ
ȻɿڣǿƶѾˮȹжúȵģ̲סֶ˼ڣɿĿȵͣز嶼˲٣Ωزķ΢΢ͻӲӲطĹһȥɪɪͷϾаˮֱÿƶ֣
εؿƺ˵ĿƶѾˣƶҪ棬̲סһȭ˹ȥǿԼ־ͰѿƶԼڵĻȸӲ˳ƶʱ""һ"㲻ˣ"
"......"ƶϽȥӱǰ߰һڣӱͦزϵسڵĳһ㡣
"......"̼òȻ춿ƶȻڵ޳ܵرԼĵҧסƶȡϢſڴϣƶһνҷ֮......
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̫ûԵʣⳡ˺ܾãֱû˯ȥֻû˯ãͱӵĿˣòƣ𴲺ذӤ򲼣ֱӷŵԼؿι̡
һߵĿƶ۾ֱˣûʲǿι̵ģֻûȣӱᱧסι̵ѵ˵"ҲҪ......"
ڸι̵һһ˲ͺιǳΣʲ֣ͷһƶʹص˴ϡ
ι˶ӣͷƶ˵"ӵûУ"
"ϲͺá"ƶ΢΢һЦӽʲᶼνֻҪ˾ͺãüʵӵ˺ܶ࣬ǿƶһֱУҲܺһֱûо""
"ϵʴȵIvanȷʵһ֣ͽ"ƶͬ˵ȷʵϵ۵ûӣڸ㲻ѾŮȥˣ"ұ"аӵĶӣƶҲ뱧ӣϾԳûб
"á"̾ͰѺӵݸƶƶû뵽ֱӾͰѺӵݸԼȫû׼Щ׾ؽӹӡСԣƶһİˣúʮӵ˿ƶһᣬͷһߵͷԼһİ˵
Ŀÿƶæ׾ҡӣﻹ߶"Ŷ............Ҫ......ˣ"ֻСܲƶӵԽԽСС֫ڿлƶ۸һŪÿƶҪˣ
һһС໥ӿһߵֹסشЦûпƶ᾽һ棬ʵ̫ɰˣЦöҪſȥˣ"ƶ̫ɰ............"
С""ԼЦῪģһ㶼ԼǾͳɤſ޵øˡ
ƶһЦúûǻﱦĿû⣬ֻؿ˭֪ԽЦԽ𾢣Цˣ"Ͳܰһ"һˣ
"ѽ"Ĵ𣬺קضԿƶ˵ƶҧгȴ޿κΣСĿҪĶĤˣ"............"
ЦݣҲС̫ãȻʵؿ޼¶Ժһİǿ̫˾Ͳˣӹƶĺӣǳغӣ"Ŷ.................."
ͬĻԲͬ˵ĿЧǽȻͬģСһĻֹס˿ֻǻСسָոյоȴָԼԱ˵"֪䡣"
"......"ƶ͵رԼĿˮǺһ£ʲʱΪˣ۴ԱŴѧĽǶӦǸײ"Ϊʲ䣿"ЩƵ
"Ϊǵأ"ն˵ҲҾӣֻǿƶǲĵȡԼȨ"˵Ҳǵذɣ'"ǿ֡
̲ˬڳһֻ֣˿ƶһȭ"ǵ䣡"ѾƵظƶ»Ҫι̣˵ҲҪڳƺռˣ"Ҫգ"
"ӸҲ......"ϲںҲӦõģڳƺҪģ"ǴӻŴǶ˵Ӧ䡣"
"˵ʲ᣿"üƶƶ뷴ٲȻвȻȡȻ"ȭ"ԼĿᣬƶֻӵرͣһ߸ɿ
СڵӣƶĲζȫ޷""ֱĸоЩܵѵ˽......
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¶߽ʱ򣬾ͿƶڴϣͱһõǺܿģüЩ⣬ƶȻû֪ͨԼ΢Цƶ"ˣˣ֪һںչ㣬Ҫúòأ"
"Ŷ......ǣ"ƶǰİŮˣŮ˰ڳһЩڡ
"ĻʿԽ¶ȡ"¶ʼձ΢Ц˿ƶصķԺ޵Լ֪ЩţʶӱֵøΪơ
¶ˣϵЦݾͷ˿Ѻӵݸ¶ȣ"¶ȣƶѾˣȥҽ......"
"ѾûˣҪԺ"¶֮ĬÿƶƣῴһҵģԼˣ
ƶĵ˵"֪㲻ϲҽԺǿƶŸոѹҪҽپԺ"
"ҪԺ"ҪԺԭ򲻽ΪϲҽԺ˵̫ơ
"ƶҲʲ֢"ԺȰ
"ҪԺ"ƶȴִֻһ仰Ϊ֮ᣬһһΪƶģȴû뵽ƶִִͷʹ
"ƶòãˣԼĽһ£"ʼЩá
"ԼˣҪԺ"ƶȻ仰һȭȥˣ
¶Ҳ֮ĻҩζӽȰ˵"̸ȥҽй"
ƶƺҪԺӴҪߣʵ޻˵ºӣץסƶȥһȭڿƶĸÿƶʹϣյضԿƶ˵"ҹԹҪؼҺôҲҽᣬһȥ·ܴܲҽԺ·ܰɣ㣬Һúչ"
ɷ˵ذѺӸƶͼƶһӽӲĽҪƶﲻܶȻЩİѱƶÿƶԭز
"ȵ......"ƶһҪɤʸСӤûޣ뿪ˣ죿
СƶڵԿƶ΢һϤУȻʧˣ᲻Լأ¾ͷŴɤ޺"۩۩"
ƶҵӵıѧո«˵"........................˯в......úõ˯һ......"
ǿƶĻСһ㶼ƶƶ˵͹Լޣ޵˻㵸ģȭڿƶϣƶȻʹҶ˿ƶסѶȡ
ƶĸоǱһĴǱһƷסֲһŰһСʲˣԽǽһģСԽҪѿ֣ССŤת͵˴ȥ
С޹۾һ£̱ĳǸĿٶһ𣬿޵һһѱģȻӿƶϵϵḷ̌ܶҴˤòʹû뵽İˤ˴֮ϣССܵ˺ĸоһķǳĵش޵ÿƶһ취ûУƶп޵ó嶯ˣ죡ΪʲСһӱκθѶȵʵ鶼Ѹ㶨ʱ˸ãҲһԥع
ȵ¶ȴҽʱǿƶɥһС򲻸ش¶ȺҽȻЦ˳
¶ȱӣ΢ЦͿƶ˵"ԸӲ׵ģҲŬ˺ܾòӦСⷵġ"
С¶ȵĻﲻٿЩζȴҲһٺӲٿˣĿʵ̫ˣ
ҽƶֻ΢һ£ǰ˵ģƶ岢ûд󰭣ֻǾϵϰûѹѾûʲˣȵæϻʱҽͶ˵ƶѾԳԺˡ
ҲһʵϣҲϲҽԺ˵˶ϲҽԺɣֻǲߵҽԺſڣͿϹ諾ȻſڣܳԾû뵽Ϲͳˣ漴һҽԺҲϹҵģõһҲġ
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Ϲ諿ӺͿƶһǰһشҽԺ߳üĿ䴫໥УʵЩĽ֪ʲʱԼǸҲĸ飬ֻһЦҪľ;Բ
Ϲ諣侲˼סĿƶ֣ƶᣬϹ̽ŵߵǰ棬СϿƶȥ൱ȣֻ΢ֺĺˮĽũǷϹеĿ־С
ս˿ƶ֣ഫ˴˵֧֣Ϲ諿Щʡ
ϹǰЦ˵"ڿ²ҵʱˣװֶӡ"
ƶر˫ԸϹ˵νʵ䲢ûбԼ٣ȻϹҵĻǺ˽⣬ǰϹҲԲһˣȴοĿƶļߵϹ諵ǰ˵"ԣ"
Ϲ΢üϳֳȤ飺"˼Ȼҽ"Ϲ諿̹̹ػѵõһ˿ЦЦݣ"ã˵˵"
"㣬ҪǰƽϹҵ£ӴϹƶûκιϵҲǲҪٴǵ"˵üᶨϹ֪ϹϹҵĵλԷͬһ㣬ǰ˾ܹǰƽϹҵĸţʵϹҵĸҪϹ諰ɣֻԿƶоļر⣡
Ϲ諿һۣǰ˺ԼûʲͻҲֻҪ˵˵ʲ£Ҳû˼ȥˡ"ԡ"
ϹˬشӦˣǿƶоЩΪѣļֻӦϹ⣬Ϲҵ˩治Ŀгɹ"......"
"ƶ˵"ѵɫضԿƶ˵"ѼǾ͸ǰɣӴϹҾûκιϵˣ뿪УȥԼӣ"
˸Ĺÿƶ۷ˣͷӣֻúҸûйҸĸоǵĺûϹҵӰĵػǵ֮£
ƶصǵļϹ諣ȻϹҾ޹ˣ
ǾͿʼʰ뿪УȥϲϼұȽϽĴУ¿ʼǵһרſȤҩ˾ƶȻµĿгԱˣܿģҹ˾ҩͳΪгĳ
춺ӵĳƺһֱִµ⣬ƶò֮£ûа취ֻ˵ڶ̥ˣ˭з󣬿ƶҲҪȻвҪԼĺͿƶ־ӡ
СϤ˿ƶҲͿƶˣųƶʱҿƶÿƶҲ׵ȤǵһЩȻȴǸܰıɽ˿ƶϵЦԽԽ࣬Ǹ顣


Ŀʮֵ£õؼӣתͷڸϵĿƶ"װģȥ棿"
"㡣"ƶWϷ˵ЦݣĿá
"أ㲻˵Ҫȥ㣬Ȼտ"ŵһСкͷ̽Ϳƶ֮䡣
ŵһСк̲˵"أ˵Ҫȥɽģ"
ЩΪѣȷʵкӦڸ죿ɲڶǰʧţؿƶƶӵĿ⣬ԶĶӣк˵"ԣضѾСˣɽȥҰͣΣ"
"Ҳ̫ˣ"һСкоԼʤһػһСк죬ȴҲ޿κΣ˭еضﻹиµСˣãǶһСѽʱӵضܳһҪúõо
"أĶģ"кǺʡ
"......"εһƸƶ"ǵǽͰɡ"
ƶͻȻ΢Ц"㲻ϸؽ"
ʱظ˿ƶһȭÿƶʹ΢Ц"ǻҪҪҰͣҪĻҿɾҪȡжˡ"
"Ҫ"кͬ˵ԹԵã͵ˡ
صͷһίĿƶϵЦݸˣ"ƶװģҰ㡣"
ƶʱЦ˵"װģǳɡ"

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